You might think you see who I really am, but you'll never know me. Now I see that if I wear a mask and live my life. I will be happier. Much more happier then I can get. I might be able to fool the world, fool everyone but still I know I cannot fool my heart. So what? As long as I feel better this way. When I looked into the mirror I was wondering if my reflection knows who really am I inside. This question shall be answered and to known by on one other then me.

As long as I hide my heart, my feelings and my true self. No one will ever REACH me, nothing will turn out bad. Keep every little thing to myself would be safer. So what if it hurts? Its less hurting then what people can give.

I didn't force myself to do this, I choose to be like this. I must be like this. Concealing myself. Protecting myself. Keep all my ability to feel deep inside of me and maybe one day I can really don't feel and that obviously would be the best ever. And my advice to whoever who come across here. Don't try to talk to me I might not speak in a nice way. Those trying to open my heart, sorry I've tossed away the key to my heart. Don't try. Don't waste your time.

And who knows, my heart is free to fly someday.