Hahs! Changed playlist.. some random songs~ trying to find some nice reggaeton, but i don't know any nice de.. intro anyone? =D
(some songs are very old de loh~ like i said i auntie liao ;p)

Kay Kay back to my household chores!! Rush Rush!!!!!!!

Okay, this few days did went audit-ing. Cause I'm rotting away real soon!
And I had been a glutton this few days! Ohs-man... my diet plan T__T!
Midnight fried koropok enjoy myself.. Fattening lah!!! >_< hehs, but I think I don't really care about my diet already. LOL cannot resist Food leh. Craving for ice cream now!! Haas! I Know I'm a glutton ;x LOL!

Change my picture, and to me everything looks okay except for my teeth! I hate it D:
I want to brace my teeth!! I want double eyelids too! <.< My double eyelids ain't natural. I get double eyelids when I don't have enough sleep ;p LOL.

Great.. its going to be 2009! A new wish!

I WANT A MAKEOVER! I WANT TO CHANGE MYSELF!

Thanks everyone for all of your care and concern ;D Leens is fine ^__^V
Now some quiz for entertainment ;x Somehow quite true =D

Don't peep at the answers! If not no fun already :p
Answers will be at the back ;D

Questions!

1. 以下這三種動物，哪一樣是你最喜愛的？
Choose one out of the three animals that you like.

a. 貓;Cat 　　　b. 鳥;Bird　　　c. 狗;Dog


2. 你最喜愛什麼顏色？
Choose your fravourite colour of of this three.

a.粉紅色;Pink　　　b.白色;White　　　c.黑色;Black


3. 列舉一個與你相同性別的人之名字
Name one person of the same gender.

4. 列舉一個與你相反性別的人之名字
Name one person of the opposite gender.

5. 你較喜歡山脈，還是海灘？
You prefer the Sierra or Beach? (Sierra : a chain of hills or mountains)

6. 你喜歡看日出，還是日落?
You like the Sunrise or Sunset?

7. 你最喜歡什麼植物？
Which type of plant you like?

a.紅玫瑰;Red Roses　　　b.蕨類植物;Fern　　　c.已經枯萎的植物;Withers plant


8. 你最喜歡哪個季節？
Out of the three, which Season you like?

a.春季;Spring　　　 b.冬季;Winter　　　c.夏季;Summer


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1. 解答 Answer
a. 貓;Cat：你最愛你自己; You love yourself the most.
b. 鳥;Bird：你喜歡聽你自己的談話; You like your own conversation.
c. 狗;Dog：你把別人看得比自己還重; Others come first, and you always put yourself at the last. (From the translate.reference.com : You compared yourself heavily to others)

2. 解答 Answer
a.粉紅色;Pink：你是豪放派的人; You're a Bold faction type.
b.白色;White：你是正統派的人; You're a Orthodox type
c.黑色Black：你是生活在邊緣的人; You're the "Life in edge" type.

3. 解答 Answer
他╱她是你的幸運之星 ; That person is your lucky star.

4. 解答 Answer
你將與他╱她成為非常非常親密的朋友 ; That person is going to be your Intimate/Close Friend.

5. 解答 Answer
a.山脈;Sierra：會早婚 ; You'll have a early marriage.
b.海灘;Beach：會晚婚 ; You'll have a late marriage.

6. 解答 Answer
a.日出：你是一個似早晨的人且你得到更多的任務完成 ; You're a Morning person, and you can obtain more successful missions.
b.日落：你是一個浪漫的人且你那緩慢地迷戀的時候到了 ; You're a Romantic person, and the time of your slow romance is here.

7. 解答 Answer
a. 紅玫瑰;Red Roses：你的生活是完美的，可是有時候會多剌而令人苦惱 ; Your life is perfect. But there will be some stabbings and upsetting moments .
b. 蕨類植物;Fern：你的生活將是可預言的，且會穩健平安 ; Your life might be predictable and its safe and steady.
c. 已經枯萎的植物;Withers plant：你是一個有病的人，生活如一灘死水; You are sickly, and Life's like stagnant water.

8. 解答 Answer
a. 春季;Spring：你是一個無法自拔的浪漫主義者 ; You are the romantic person who is unable to extricate oneself
b. 冬季;Winter：你是一個堅持善良的人 ; You are a good hearted person.
c. 夏季;Summer：你是一個對任何事物皆坦率的人 ; You are a frank person.


Okay all the answers is here already~ I tried my best to translate liao =X LOL
Okay Bed Time! Nights people!!!

神木与瞳 - 美丽

我一直以為没有明天
我一直以為这就是终点
在夜的尽头 燃烧成绚燃的烟
我一直以為我无所谓
我一直以為这又是起点
直到我发现 你降下红色的雪
覆盖了我的眼

一切 美丽的情节
是我 编织的幻觉
出现 美丽的境界
是你 最后的安慰

我一直以為就这麼直接
我一直以為就如此纯粹
在路的尽头 坠落在无底深渊
我一直以為我没了知觉
我一直以為自己是傀儡
直到我发现你留下黑色的泪
解脱了我的罪

一切 美丽的情节
是我 编织的幻觉
出现 美丽的境界
是你 最后的安慰
一切 美丽的情节
是我 编织的幻觉
出现 美丽的境界
是你 最后的安慰


All the beautiful happenings, is just my delusion.

Life's is really a ride... A moment of happiness, a moment of loneliness, a moment of blue, a moment of red.. Why isn't life peaceful when actually lots of people desire it?

I couldn't differentiate my feelings as well. And I know this is reality . I couldn't be dreaming, right? Just because I desire Love, I fall and got back up on my feet and I fall again. How many times I've told myself, Stop Dreaming, Stop Yearning, Stop Thinking about LOVE?

Love is a moment of romance or eternity of hell?


Must it end in such a way?
I Guess, it's Definitely.
I miss your embrace. I miss your breath.

李玖哲 - 死结

离不开的 却离开
抓不住想抓的爱
怪自己活该
我的未来 你不来
我的故事很无奈
我注定失败
我们的对话 你悄悄离了线
我们的热线 今后断了线
你在山的那边 那么遥远
你说再见 宣判了终点
你在我心里打了死结
绑住孤单 在我的世界
你带走的快乐 我没了知觉
一个人面对每个日夜
找不到你的我 已失去一切
我们的爱已无法脱险
你打了死结
无心伤害却伤害
空白以后才明白
原来这是爱
你的心我最能猜
你的爱我被淘汰
我注定悲哀


“我在你心里打了死结。你也在我心里打了死结。你是不是也在尝试解开那在我们心里已久的死结呢？我深深伤害了你，但你知不知道你也深深的伤害了我？我有尝试解开那个死结，但你却关上了心门。不过我还在门外等你。”

Q1. the person who tagged you was?
-> ZR;D

Q2. Your relationship with him was?
-> Long time classmate ++erzi!

Q3. your fifth impression of him?
-> steady pom pi pi

Q4. the most memorable thing he did for you?
->Always there to listen to my craps!

Q5. if he becomes your lover, you would?
-> Lover? Nah! We're BFF!

Q6. If he become your lover, she needs to improve on?
-> He wouldn't. He's good enough to be my BFF. Hey but mai emo loh.

Q7. If he becomes your enemy, you would?
- > Its impossible :D

Q8. If he becomes your enemy, he need to improve on?
- > as above <.<

Q9. If she becomes your enemy, the reason would be?
-> Let fate decide.

Q10. the most desired thing you want for him to be?
-> MAI EMO!

Q11. Your overall impression for him?
-> Crime partner during old sch time! Smoking kaki? Ah bu. LOL

Q12. how do you think others would think of you?
-> err i've got no ideal >.>

Q13. The character you love about yourself?
-> Actually I've got nth to love abt myself x.x

Q14. The characters you hate about yourself?
-> I had nv used my brain to think before i act.

Q15. The most ideal person you wanna be
-> JLJJ.

Q16. For people that care and love you, what would you wanna say to them?
-> Thanks for all the care and love!

Q17. Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you.
1. JUANNIE!<3
2. STEPHY!<3
3. REY BROOOO ;DDD
4. ZAI RONG!!
5. YI ZHEN :DDD
6. EVE!<3
7. YUZU!<3
8. PEILING!!<3
9. JLJJ <333333333
10. LEWIS D:

Q18. Who is no.6 having a relationship with? (EVE)
-> PS secret lai eh!

Q19. Is number 9 a female or male? (JLJJ)
->MALE<3

Q20. If number 7 & 10 are together, would it be good? (Yuzu & Lewis)
-> Obviously NOT!

Q21. What is number 2 studying about ? (Stephy)
-> Not Schling.

Q22. when was the last time you chatted with number 3 (Rey Bro!)
-> Still at this very second.

Q23. what kind of music genre does no.8 like? (PeiLing)
-> Whatever its nice! Cause we're music lovers ;x

Q24 Does no.1 have siblings? (Juan)
->None in RL. But I am her swore-sister :DD

Q25. Would you woo number 3? (Rey)
-> My BFF, MY BRO leh!

Q26. how about number 7? (Yuzu)
-> Later Za aniki kill me ;X

Q27. Is the number 4 single? (Zairong)
-> :X

Q28. what is the surname of number 5? (YiZhen)
- Chua!

Q29. What is the hobby of no.10? (Lewis)
-> Sabor me loh! And draw!

Q30. Does number 5 & 9 get along? (YiZhen & JLJJ)
-> Not sure.

Q31. Talk something casually about 1. (Juan)
-> My super girlfriend aka sister whom is loved by me<3

Q32. Have you tired developing feelings for no.8? (PeiLing)
-> I don't want to be killed by Dav. :X

Q33. Where does no.9 stay (JLJJ)
-> BWG.

Q34. what colour does no.4 like ? (Zairong)
-> He like black and white(as he said :X)

Q35. Are number 1&5 best friends? (Juan & YiZhen)
-> Thats for sure!

Q36 Does number 1 have any pets? (Juan)
-> Does her grand-pa tortise count?

Q37. Is number 7 the sexiest person on earth? (Yuzu)
-> SMEXY DIE!

Q38. What is number 10 doing now? (Lewis)
-> In Cambodia. Doing volunteering works.

Dear a few songs dedicated for u.. All in the playlist already.

我没说，你没有问，
就这样关上了心门.
爱那么真 情有多深
只能在 心底找个人
拥抱的疑问 会得几分
还在迷离飞腾
曾经的单纯 远走的信任
必经那么并却回不了身
舍不得让你撑受更多伤痕
所以选择单方面加温
虽然我还未决定
放弃会不会快乐
一个人的未来该这么撑
舍不得听见你的哭泣声
所以选择面对你的眼神
让爱的人快乐 是一种责任
就算分开比我想象的要疼
让爱的人快乐是一种责任
就算分开比我想象的要疼


"舍不得让你撑受更多伤痕
所以选择单方面加温
虽然我还未决定
放弃会不会快乐
一个人的未来该这么撑
舍不得听见你的哭泣声
所以选择面对你的眼神
让爱的人快乐 是一种责任
就算分开比我想象的要疼"
我不想放弃
are u thinking of this too? But I am.

ni bu ai wo, shi wo she bu de.
shi wo bu pei, wei ni zai lang bei.
ni bu ai wo, zhen de bu ai wo?

hais.. shi wo bu pei, rang ni ai wo.

能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜
请你相信我的心还是爱你.

I wanna thanks a few people who had constantly 安慰-ing me. Thanks for being there but Leen isn't getting better.. had make all of ur effort gone to waste..

Thanks Rey bro, who is always there to cheer me up for the past 2-3 days. Thanks for all the jokes u had tell me. It really do makes my laugh for a few good minutes but after that I remain the same again. And thanks for being there to 开导 me. Even though u have your own pain as well.. Thank you Rey bro.

Thanks Sis aka Xiu Juan, I know u had been worried about me. Sorry that I broke the promise to you made since a very few years back. But don't worry okay? Its nothing serious. So u can put ur heart down. I am still here with u. And really thanks for being there to listen to what I have to say. Thank you sis for all of ur care and understandings. Xie xie le.

Thanks girl girl, I want to thank u too. Thank for being there to listen to my sobs. And really appreciate that u were there to lend me ur listening ear and also 开导 me. And I'm really sorry to have interrupted u and Kai's conversation that night.

Thanks people who had asked me ''am I okay'' sorry that I don't talk much but thanks for the care.

And thanks people, I had slept too for 1 hours though. I'm getting better alittle thanks for being there all.

In the late night u had called but kept quiet.. are u still angry with me? I guess I still have to give you some quiet time to wait till u're not angry anymore. And I am still feeling the same.

Wasn't getting any better. Tears' dried and things remained the same.
How am I going to show you that I am really sorry? I ain't giving up.
Life's really really bad when you totally ignore me.


I'm seriously... i don't know how to describe that feeling.. Its like my heart wanted to stop beating and it hurt lots and feeling really empty. And don't even have the mood to do anything else.. i don't feel sleepy, i don't feel hungry, basically i don't feel anything emotional besides the pains i have for the past 2-3 days. Someone save me from this pain... Feel like I'm gonna shatter into pieces..

I guess you hate me now.

I did try my best to.. But I'm always never good enough.



I will always love you by 6 yrs old Connie Talbot




Somewhere over the rainbow by 6 yrs old Connie Talbot



Her singing and voice never failed to make me tear.

sis.. wake up please.. my heart feel very very pain.. sis.. i really very pain..
sorry.. i never keep my promise. forgive me okay? i really very sad. i don't have ppl to talk to le.
sis...help me okay? sis i cannot stop crying.. wake up i need you. sorry i do silly things again. i cannot find other way to ease the pain. i really pain. wo hen nan guo, zhen de hen nan shou. wo zhen de hen tong. du bu qi xiu juan..

I have a ultimate urge to look for him now.. But I don't where to start from.. I am feeling super useless.. Please return home safely. I am seriously worried. Please okay?

It was totally 2 straight atrocious days to go through. Just look at what I done... I had destroyed everything with my own hands. I can't get to sleep since yesterday night with millions of undesired thoughts running wildly through every part of my mind and heart. When I was about to slumber, I received a call with a dreadful news I wasn't expecting at around 11.30 am. I lost everything within a day. Even though it was just a game, I had felt the despair growing massively within me when I am already feeling quite desperate. Now I am worried and feeling upmost desperation. I've really and seriously regretted for being so bleak spoken. Now that I've regretted, its totally useless. I am really feeling very remorseful. It is like stabbing pains, and everything seems so hopeless.. I am feeling real bad. Nothing feels right to me now.. I am lost.. really lost. I've got no mood to eat my meals..

Dear, I'm really sorry. I can't be the perfect person. I'm utterly the worst. I don't deserve you loving me. I appreciate that you had think about me. And its also me who makes you feel unappreciated. To be honest with you, I had never regret about being together with you. For once you are my everything. For once I had feel that I am being loved by you. And never once I was understanding. And I know that you will never step afoot at this blog to read all this. I'm sorry. I hope you are alright. Sorry, I can't help worrying. And I don't have the courage to sms you anymore. Forgive me for what I had done.

I wish that I could end all these miseries.
Let it gone with the wind...

I am feeling very miserable. It sucks hell lot.
I don't want anything anymore. I don't want everything.
Take everything away. Just every single thing, cause it'll never ever make any difference.
Cause I don't deserve anything from anybody. For God's sake and everybody's sake, I apologise for every single thing I had done. I know I had promised some of you, don't ever to talk like this again. Sorry I can't help it.

I don't know who will really care. Sometimes people say they do but in fact they don't.
But for sis, i know you do.. am i right? I suppose so?
Sis, I really really very sad. I know my temper not good. But I really got try to change.
Will you believe me anot? Hais sis, I wish you were here to lend me your shoulder. I want to cry out loud now.. Will you feel ashamed to have a sucky and lousy sister like me? I don't blame you for regretting or feel ashamed by me. Sis, I got alot alot of things to say..You know I only want to spend sometime with him anot? I really never meant to scold him de you know anot.. You know
I also feel very guilty after saying all those stuff to him, you know anot... Sis.. I love him alot you know anot.. This past few months is not easy for me to live you understand mah..? Sis I cannot call you and sms to share my xin shi.. I never pay my bill for 2 months ler. I only can receive incoming calls and sms. I hope you don't mind I type everything here. Sis.. I am feeling very terrible. It hurts alot alot.. jie thks for being there. Jie i think i really shameless siah.

Bored die. Copied some self-survey from friendster =.=...

1. What do you think of the most when you are alone?
-> Can we walk till the very end happily?

2. When it is a rainy night, what do you do most of the time?
-> Depending. And one thing for sure is to think of him, will he catch a cold?

3. If you’ll go on a date, what would you like to do?
-> Spending time together all by our own.

4. What do you do when you see a fullmoon?
-> "Another fullmoon.."

5. Would you rather swim in the lake or dive in the ocean?
-> Both?

6. What would be the best partner of a good cup of coffee?
-> Cakes! Cookies!

7. If you’ll ask yourself a question now,what would it be?
-> Can we possible walk till the very end?

8. If certain things in your life will fall apart, what will you do?
-> Let it fall, let it fall..

9. What was the hardest decision you made in your life so far?
-> A secret.

10. When your friends forget you, what will you do?
-> I will forget about them too.
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1. First​ off, you like boys right​ ?
-> Nah, I like guy/man. lol

2. Last perso​nn you talke​d on the phone​ with?​
-> My brother..

3. Do you tend to fall for playe​rs?​
-> Simi players? BBall players?

4. Do you wish someo​ne would​ call you right​ now? who?
-> Yeaa.. My Dear of course. lol

5. Have you ever had a boy best frien​d?​
-> Plenty of them...

6. Do you talk about​ your feeli​ngs or hide them?​
-> Hide most of them..

7. Are you a morni​ng perso​n or a night​ perso​n?​
-> Somewhere in the middle?

8. Do you want to get marri​ed?
-> (:

9. Do you hate being​ alone​?​
-> I am used to be alone..

10. Are you slowl​y drift​ing away from someo​ne close​?​
-> I suppose so..

11. Are you an emoti​onal perso​n?​
-> So-So

12. What'​s somet​hing that can alway​s make you feel bette​r?​
-> Songs, Him & KoKo and my friends lend me their listening ears(:

13. Three​ feeli​ngs at the momen​t?​
-> Emptiness; Loneliness; ....Speechless?
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1. Who is in the room with you?
-> I am alone at home.. perhaps my grandpa's spirit?

2. Who is the last person to text you?
-> My Brother..

3. Who was the last person you told you love them?
-> Him.

4. What was the last thing you ate?
-> My breakfast? lol

5. What is the last movie watched?
-> Err.. I had forgotten abt it coz that was a few months and months ago..

6. What do you currently hearing right now?
-> "I don't wanna be without you, baby. I don't want a broken heart~"

7. When did you last go to the mall?
-> A few weeks ago?

8. When did you last buy a new pair of pants?
-> 2 Monthssss ago -.-

9. Where is your favorite place to be?
-> Anyway together with him.

10. When is the last time you cried.
-> 1 hour + ago..

11. Current feeling.
-> Empty.

孤单？幸福？伤心？难过？快乐？

不知道啦！

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How many IP address you want? At a Lan shop eh.
Computer switching or multiple "SHASHA"?
I assume that so many people wanna be SHASHA eh. LOL!
Or shall I say that.. you get friends to help to tag? Coz that you cant handle it all by yourself?

And to the SHASHA number: 163.
I assume that you had watched a porn vid, and the main female lead was your mum being fucked by numerous guys. And your dad forced you to.. oh man sucking his dick?!! What a pathetic life you had there. So sad but I don't feel sorry about that. You wanna insult my family tsk tsk. Look at you family so pathetic, pity this person and his/her family someone? XD

Ok, I was bored. So I decided to search some Chanel's perfume when I come across this

very very cute Cupcake with Chanel Logo. And I went looking for some beautiful and cute cakes.

Too pretty to be eaten!

The Holloween's Cupcake! So cute!
Chocolate cakes and cupcakes, pretty!
Have you seen a rainbow coloured cake?
The Watermelon Cake!

The Wedding Cake.

They call it the "Tattoo Cake"

This Wedding Cake is so nice~
This too! The baker actually paints the roses on! ( Look at the 30 sign and the base of the cake)

Okay this is from SG. Chocolate Raspberry Gateaux( I think they're not selling it anymore)

When I used to work there, I love this cake :p

And lastly presented to you is a Custom Made Double Chocolate Mud Cake by customer's request. For mature viewer only!! And see the picture with a "Open-Mind" you might find it gross.

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The custom made "Penis Double Choco Mud Cake"!

I took the picture when I was up in the kitchen :p Its semi-done.

2 more days to our 6th month anniversary(:

My bao bei got girl to edit a picture. Thanks both dear and girl~ like it alot ;D

Bao bei, I love you<3

Sighs... I thought you'll be free to accompany me tonight. But in the end...
Darn why am I complaining =.= ...... Speechless....... I kept telling myself to be understanding.
But still I am complaining.. Just a moment of disappointment I suppose..
I am waiting in game, in msn.. Still you are not there..
I don't know if you know how I feel. But I guess you probably don't.
Hours of Stoning makes me backache. Hours of waiting makes me feeling more alone.
Hope you'll be there.

Copied the picture from my brother's blog :X Rainbow after the rain around my house ;D
Nice hor? So rare to see a rainbow around my house(: