Hahs! Changed playlist.. some random songs~ trying to find some nice reggaeton, but i don't know any nice de.. intro anyone? =D
(some songs are very old de loh~ like i said i auntie liao ;p)

Kay Kay back to my household chores!! Rush Rush!!!!!!!

Okay, this few days did went audit-ing. Cause I'm rotting away real soon!
And I had been a glutton this few days! Ohs-man... my diet plan T__T!
Midnight fried koropok enjoy myself.. Fattening lah!!! >_< hehs, but I think I don't really care about my diet already. LOL cannot resist Food leh. Craving for ice cream now!! Haas! I Know I'm a glutton ;x LOL!

Change my picture, and to me everything looks okay except for my teeth! I hate it D:
I want to brace my teeth!! I want double eyelids too! <.< My double eyelids ain't natural. I get double eyelids when I don't have enough sleep ;p LOL.

Great.. its going to be 2009! A new wish!

I WANT A MAKEOVER! I WANT TO CHANGE MYSELF!

Thanks everyone for all of your care and concern ;D Leens is fine ^__^V
Now some quiz for entertainment ;x Somehow quite true =D

Don't peep at the answers! If not no fun already :p
Answers will be at the back ;D

Questions!

1. 以下這三種動物，哪一樣是你最喜愛的？
Choose one out of the three animals that you like.

a. 貓;Cat 　　　b. 鳥;Bird　　　c. 狗;Dog


2. 你最喜愛什麼顏色？
Choose your fravourite colour of of this three.

a.粉紅色;Pink　　　b.白色;White　　　c.黑色;Black


3. 列舉一個與你相同性別的人之名字
Name one person of the same gender.

4. 列舉一個與你相反性別的人之名字
Name one person of the opposite gender.

5. 你較喜歡山脈，還是海灘？
You prefer the Sierra or Beach? (Sierra : a chain of hills or mountains)

6. 你喜歡看日出，還是日落?
You like the Sunrise or Sunset?

7. 你最喜歡什麼植物？
Which type of plant you like?

a.紅玫瑰;Red Roses　　　b.蕨類植物;Fern　　　c.已經枯萎的植物;Withers plant


8. 你最喜歡哪個季節？
Out of the three, which Season you like?

a.春季;Spring　　　 b.冬季;Winter　　　c.夏季;Summer


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1. 解答 Answer
a. 貓;Cat：你最愛你自己; You love yourself the most.
b. 鳥;Bird：你喜歡聽你自己的談話; You like your own conversation.
c. 狗;Dog：你把別人看得比自己還重; Others come first, and you always put yourself at the last. (From the translate.reference.com : You compared yourself heavily to others)

2. 解答 Answer
a.粉紅色;Pink：你是豪放派的人; You're a Bold faction type.
b.白色;White：你是正統派的人; You're a Orthodox type
c.黑色Black：你是生活在邊緣的人; You're the "Life in edge" type.

3. 解答 Answer
他╱她是你的幸運之星 ; That person is your lucky star.

4. 解答 Answer
你將與他╱她成為非常非常親密的朋友 ; That person is going to be your Intimate/Close Friend.

5. 解答 Answer
a.山脈;Sierra：會早婚 ; You'll have a early marriage.
b.海灘;Beach：會晚婚 ; You'll have a late marriage.

6. 解答 Answer
a.日出：你是一個似早晨的人且你得到更多的任務完成 ; You're a Morning person, and you can obtain more successful missions.
b.日落：你是一個浪漫的人且你那緩慢地迷戀的時候到了 ; You're a Romantic person, and the time of your slow romance is here.

7. 解答 Answer
a. 紅玫瑰;Red Roses：你的生活是完美的，可是有時候會多剌而令人苦惱 ; Your life is perfect. But there will be some stabbings and upsetting moments .
b. 蕨類植物;Fern：你的生活將是可預言的，且會穩健平安 ; Your life might be predictable and its safe and steady.
c. 已經枯萎的植物;Withers plant：你是一個有病的人，生活如一灘死水; You are sickly, and Life's like stagnant water.

8. 解答 Answer
a. 春季;Spring：你是一個無法自拔的浪漫主義者 ; You are the romantic person who is unable to extricate oneself
b. 冬季;Winter：你是一個堅持善良的人 ; You are a good hearted person.
c. 夏季;Summer：你是一個對任何事物皆坦率的人 ; You are a frank person.


Okay all the answers is here already~ I tried my best to translate liao =X LOL
Okay Bed Time! Nights people!!!

神木与瞳 - 美丽

我一直以為没有明天
我一直以為这就是终点
在夜的尽头 燃烧成绚燃的烟
我一直以為我无所谓
我一直以為这又是起点
直到我发现 你降下红色的雪
覆盖了我的眼

一切 美丽的情节
是我 编织的幻觉
出现 美丽的境界
是你 最后的安慰

我一直以為就这麼直接
我一直以為就如此纯粹
在路的尽头 坠落在无底深渊
我一直以為我没了知觉
我一直以為自己是傀儡
直到我发现你留下黑色的泪
解脱了我的罪

一切 美丽的情节
是我 编织的幻觉
出现 美丽的境界
是你 最后的安慰
一切 美丽的情节
是我 编织的幻觉
出现 美丽的境界
是你 最后的安慰


All the beautiful happenings, is just my delusion.

Life's is really a ride... A moment of happiness, a moment of loneliness, a moment of blue, a moment of red.. Why isn't life peaceful when actually lots of people desire it?

I couldn't differentiate my feelings as well. And I know this is reality . I couldn't be dreaming, right? Just because I desire Love, I fall and got back up on my feet and I fall again. How many times I've told myself, Stop Dreaming, Stop Yearning, Stop Thinking about LOVE?

Love is a moment of romance or eternity of hell?


Must it end in such a way?
I Guess, it's Definitely.
I miss your embrace. I miss your breath.

李玖哲 - 死结

离不开的 却离开
抓不住想抓的爱
怪自己活该
我的未来 你不来
我的故事很无奈
我注定失败
我们的对话 你悄悄离了线
我们的热线 今后断了线
你在山的那边 那么遥远
你说再见 宣判了终点
你在我心里打了死结
绑住孤单 在我的世界
你带走的快乐 我没了知觉
一个人面对每个日夜
找不到你的我 已失去一切
我们的爱已无法脱险
你打了死结
无心伤害却伤害
空白以后才明白
原来这是爱
你的心我最能猜
你的爱我被淘汰
我注定悲哀


“我在你心里打了死结。你也在我心里打了死结。你是不是也在尝试解开那在我们心里已久的死结呢？我深深伤害了你，但你知不知道你也深深的伤害了我？我有尝试解开那个死结，但你却关上了心门。不过我还在门外等你。”

Q1. the person who tagged you was?
-> ZR;D

Q2. Your relationship with him was?
-> Long time classmate ++erzi!

Q3. your fifth impression of him?
-> steady pom pi pi

Q4. the most memorable thing he did for you?
->Always there to listen to my craps!

Q5. if he becomes your lover, you would?
-> Lover? Nah! We're BFF!

Q6. If he become your lover, she needs to improve on?
-> He wouldn't. He's good enough to be my BFF. Hey but mai emo loh.

Q7. If he becomes your enemy, you would?
- > Its impossible :D

Q8. If he becomes your enemy, he need to improve on?
- > as above <.<

Q9. If she becomes your enemy, the reason would be?
-> Let fate decide.

Q10. the most desired thing you want for him to be?
-> MAI EMO!

Q11. Your overall impression for him?
-> Crime partner during old sch time! Smoking kaki? Ah bu. LOL

Q12. how do you think others would think of you?
-> err i've got no ideal >.>

Q13. The character you love about yourself?
-> Actually I've got nth to love abt myself x.x

Q14. The characters you hate about yourself?
-> I had nv used my brain to think before i act.

Q15. The most ideal person you wanna be
-> JLJJ.

Q16. For people that care and love you, what would you wanna say to them?
-> Thanks for all the care and love!

Q17. Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you.
1. JUANNIE!<3
2. STEPHY!<3
3. REY BROOOO ;DDD
4. ZAI RONG!!
5. YI ZHEN :DDD
6. EVE!<3
7. YUZU!<3
8. PEILING!!<3
9. JLJJ <333333333
10. LEWIS D:

Q18. Who is no.6 having a relationship with? (EVE)
-> PS secret lai eh!

Q19. Is number 9 a female or male? (JLJJ)
->MALE<3

Q20. If number 7 & 10 are together, would it be good? (Yuzu & Lewis)
-> Obviously NOT!

Q21. What is number 2 studying about ? (Stephy)
-> Not Schling.

Q22. when was the last time you chatted with number 3 (Rey Bro!)
-> Still at this very second.

Q23. what kind of music genre does no.8 like? (PeiLing)
-> Whatever its nice! Cause we're music lovers ;x

Q24 Does no.1 have siblings? (Juan)
->None in RL. But I am her swore-sister :DD

Q25. Would you woo number 3? (Rey)
-> My BFF, MY BRO leh!

Q26. how about number 7? (Yuzu)
-> Later Za aniki kill me ;X

Q27. Is the number 4 single? (Zairong)
-> :X

Q28. what is the surname of number 5? (YiZhen)
- Chua!

Q29. What is the hobby of no.10? (Lewis)
-> Sabor me loh! And draw!

Q30. Does number 5 & 9 get along? (YiZhen & JLJJ)
-> Not sure.

Q31. Talk something casually about 1. (Juan)
-> My super girlfriend aka sister whom is loved by me<3

Q32. Have you tired developing feelings for no.8? (PeiLing)
-> I don't want to be killed by Dav. :X

Q33. Where does no.9 stay (JLJJ)
-> BWG.

Q34. what colour does no.4 like ? (Zairong)
-> He like black and white(as he said :X)

Q35. Are number 1&5 best friends? (Juan & YiZhen)
-> Thats for sure!

Q36 Does number 1 have any pets? (Juan)
-> Does her grand-pa tortise count?

Q37. Is number 7 the sexiest person on earth? (Yuzu)
-> SMEXY DIE!

Q38. What is number 10 doing now? (Lewis)
-> In Cambodia. Doing volunteering works.

Dear a few songs dedicated for u.. All in the playlist already.

我没说，你没有问，
就这样关上了心门.
爱那么真 情有多深
只能在 心底找个人
拥抱的疑问 会得几分
还在迷离飞腾
曾经的单纯 远走的信任
必经那么并却回不了身
舍不得让你撑受更多伤痕
所以选择单方面加温
虽然我还未决定
放弃会不会快乐
一个人的未来该这么撑
舍不得听见你的哭泣声
所以选择面对你的眼神
让爱的人快乐 是一种责任
就算分开比我想象的要疼
让爱的人快乐是一种责任
就算分开比我想象的要疼


"舍不得让你撑受更多伤痕
所以选择单方面加温
虽然我还未决定
放弃会不会快乐
一个人的未来该这么撑
舍不得听见你的哭泣声
所以选择面对你的眼神
让爱的人快乐 是一种责任
就算分开比我想象的要疼"
我不想放弃
are u thinking of this too? But I am.

ni bu ai wo, shi wo she bu de.
shi wo bu pei, wei ni zai lang bei.
ni bu ai wo, zhen de bu ai wo?

hais.. shi wo bu pei, rang ni ai wo.

能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜
请你相信我的心还是爱你.

I wanna thanks a few people who had constantly 安慰-ing me. Thanks for being there but Leen isn't getting better.. had make all of ur effort gone to waste..

Thanks Rey bro, who is always there to cheer me up for the past 2-3 days. Thanks for all the jokes u had tell me. It really do makes my laugh for a few good minutes but after that I remain the same again. And thanks for being there to 开导 me. Even though u have your own pain as well.. Thank you Rey bro.

Thanks Sis aka Xiu Juan, I know u had been worried about me. Sorry that I broke the promise to you made since a very few years back. But don't worry okay? Its nothing serious. So u can put ur heart down. I am still here with u. And really thanks for being there to listen to what I have to say. Thank you sis for all of ur care and understandings. Xie xie le.

Thanks girl girl, I want to thank u too. Thank for being there to listen to my sobs. And really appreciate that u were there to lend me ur listening ear and also 开导 me. And I'm really sorry to have interrupted u and Kai's conversation that night.

Thanks people who had asked me ''am I okay'' sorry that I don't talk much but thanks for the care.

And thanks people, I had slept too for 1 hours though. I'm getting better alittle thanks for being there all.

In the late night u had called but kept quiet.. are u still angry with me? I guess I still have to give you some quiet time to wait till u're not angry anymore. And I am still feeling the same.

Wasn't getting any better. Tears' dried and things remained the same.
How am I going to show you that I am really sorry? I ain't giving up.
Life's really really bad when you totally ignore me.


I'm seriously... i don't know how to describe that feeling.. Its like my heart wanted to stop beating and it hurt lots and feeling really empty. And don't even have the mood to do anything else.. i don't feel sleepy, i don't feel hungry, basically i don't feel anything emotional besides the pains i have for the past 2-3 days. Someone save me from this pain... Feel like I'm gonna shatter into pieces..

I guess you hate me now.

I did try my best to.. But I'm always never good enough.



I will always love you by 6 yrs old Connie Talbot




Somewhere over the rainbow by 6 yrs old Connie Talbot



Her singing and voice never failed to make me tear.

sis.. wake up please.. my heart feel very very pain.. sis.. i really very pain..
sorry.. i never keep my promise. forgive me okay? i really very sad. i don't have ppl to talk to le.
sis...help me okay? sis i cannot stop crying.. wake up i need you. sorry i do silly things again. i cannot find other way to ease the pain. i really pain. wo hen nan guo, zhen de hen nan shou. wo zhen de hen tong. du bu qi xiu juan..

I have a ultimate urge to look for him now.. But I don't where to start from.. I am feeling super useless.. Please return home safely. I am seriously worried. Please okay?

It was totally 2 straight atrocious days to go through. Just look at what I done... I had destroyed everything with my own hands. I can't get to sleep since yesterday night with millions of undesired thoughts running wildly through every part of my mind and heart. When I was about to slumber, I received a call with a dreadful news I wasn't expecting at around 11.30 am. I lost everything within a day. Even though it was just a game, I had felt the despair growing massively within me when I am already feeling quite desperate. Now I am worried and feeling upmost desperation. I've really and seriously regretted for being so bleak spoken. Now that I've regretted, its totally useless. I am really feeling very remorseful. It is like stabbing pains, and everything seems so hopeless.. I am feeling real bad. Nothing feels right to me now.. I am lost.. really lost. I've got no mood to eat my meals..

Dear, I'm really sorry. I can't be the perfect person. I'm utterly the worst. I don't deserve you loving me. I appreciate that you had think about me. And its also me who makes you feel unappreciated. To be honest with you, I had never regret about being together with you. For once you are my everything. For once I had feel that I am being loved by you. And never once I was understanding. And I know that you will never step afoot at this blog to read all this. I'm sorry. I hope you are alright. Sorry, I can't help worrying. And I don't have the courage to sms you anymore. Forgive me for what I had done.

I wish that I could end all these miseries.
Let it gone with the wind...

I am feeling very miserable. It sucks hell lot.
I don't want anything anymore. I don't want everything.
Take everything away. Just every single thing, cause it'll never ever make any difference.
Cause I don't deserve anything from anybody. For God's sake and everybody's sake, I apologise for every single thing I had done. I know I had promised some of you, don't ever to talk like this again. Sorry I can't help it.

I don't know who will really care. Sometimes people say they do but in fact they don't.
But for sis, i know you do.. am i right? I suppose so?
Sis, I really really very sad. I know my temper not good. But I really got try to change.
Will you believe me anot? Hais sis, I wish you were here to lend me your shoulder. I want to cry out loud now.. Will you feel ashamed to have a sucky and lousy sister like me? I don't blame you for regretting or feel ashamed by me. Sis, I got alot alot of things to say..You know I only want to spend sometime with him anot? I really never meant to scold him de you know anot.. You know
I also feel very guilty after saying all those stuff to him, you know anot... Sis.. I love him alot you know anot.. This past few months is not easy for me to live you understand mah..? Sis I cannot call you and sms to share my xin shi.. I never pay my bill for 2 months ler. I only can receive incoming calls and sms. I hope you don't mind I type everything here. Sis.. I am feeling very terrible. It hurts alot alot.. jie thks for being there. Jie i think i really shameless siah.

Bored die. Copied some self-survey from friendster =.=...

1. What do you think of the most when you are alone?
-> Can we walk till the very end happily?

2. When it is a rainy night, what do you do most of the time?
-> Depending. And one thing for sure is to think of him, will he catch a cold?

3. If you’ll go on a date, what would you like to do?
-> Spending time together all by our own.

4. What do you do when you see a fullmoon?
-> "Another fullmoon.."

5. Would you rather swim in the lake or dive in the ocean?
-> Both?

6. What would be the best partner of a good cup of coffee?
-> Cakes! Cookies!

7. If you’ll ask yourself a question now,what would it be?
-> Can we possible walk till the very end?

8. If certain things in your life will fall apart, what will you do?
-> Let it fall, let it fall..

9. What was the hardest decision you made in your life so far?
-> A secret.

10. When your friends forget you, what will you do?
-> I will forget about them too.
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1. First​ off, you like boys right​ ?
-> Nah, I like guy/man. lol

2. Last perso​nn you talke​d on the phone​ with?​
-> My brother..

3. Do you tend to fall for playe​rs?​
-> Simi players? BBall players?

4. Do you wish someo​ne would​ call you right​ now? who?
-> Yeaa.. My Dear of course. lol

5. Have you ever had a boy best frien​d?​
-> Plenty of them...

6. Do you talk about​ your feeli​ngs or hide them?​
-> Hide most of them..

7. Are you a morni​ng perso​n or a night​ perso​n?​
-> Somewhere in the middle?

8. Do you want to get marri​ed?
-> (:

9. Do you hate being​ alone​?​
-> I am used to be alone..

10. Are you slowl​y drift​ing away from someo​ne close​?​
-> I suppose so..

11. Are you an emoti​onal perso​n?​
-> So-So

12. What'​s somet​hing that can alway​s make you feel bette​r?​
-> Songs, Him & KoKo and my friends lend me their listening ears(:

13. Three​ feeli​ngs at the momen​t?​
-> Emptiness; Loneliness; ....Speechless?
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1. Who is in the room with you?
-> I am alone at home.. perhaps my grandpa's spirit?

2. Who is the last person to text you?
-> My Brother..

3. Who was the last person you told you love them?
-> Him.

4. What was the last thing you ate?
-> My breakfast? lol

5. What is the last movie watched?
-> Err.. I had forgotten abt it coz that was a few months and months ago..

6. What do you currently hearing right now?
-> "I don't wanna be without you, baby. I don't want a broken heart~"

7. When did you last go to the mall?
-> A few weeks ago?

8. When did you last buy a new pair of pants?
-> 2 Monthssss ago -.-

9. Where is your favorite place to be?
-> Anyway together with him.

10. When is the last time you cried.
-> 1 hour + ago..

11. Current feeling.
-> Empty.

孤单？幸福？伤心？难过？快乐？

不知道啦！

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How many IP address you want? At a Lan shop eh.
Computer switching or multiple "SHASHA"?
I assume that so many people wanna be SHASHA eh. LOL!
Or shall I say that.. you get friends to help to tag? Coz that you cant handle it all by yourself?

And to the SHASHA number: 163.
I assume that you had watched a porn vid, and the main female lead was your mum being fucked by numerous guys. And your dad forced you to.. oh man sucking his dick?!! What a pathetic life you had there. So sad but I don't feel sorry about that. You wanna insult my family tsk tsk. Look at you family so pathetic, pity this person and his/her family someone? XD

Ok, I was bored. So I decided to search some Chanel's perfume when I come across this

very very cute Cupcake with Chanel Logo. And I went looking for some beautiful and cute cakes.

Too pretty to be eaten!

The Holloween's Cupcake! So cute!
Chocolate cakes and cupcakes, pretty!
Have you seen a rainbow coloured cake?
The Watermelon Cake!

The Wedding Cake.

They call it the "Tattoo Cake"

This Wedding Cake is so nice~
This too! The baker actually paints the roses on! ( Look at the 30 sign and the base of the cake)

Okay this is from SG. Chocolate Raspberry Gateaux( I think they're not selling it anymore)

When I used to work there, I love this cake :p

And lastly presented to you is a Custom Made Double Chocolate Mud Cake by customer's request. For mature viewer only!! And see the picture with a "Open-Mind" you might find it gross.

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The custom made "Penis Double Choco Mud Cake"!

I took the picture when I was up in the kitchen :p Its semi-done.

2 more days to our 6th month anniversary(:

My bao bei got girl to edit a picture. Thanks both dear and girl~ like it alot ;D

Bao bei, I love you<3

Sighs... I thought you'll be free to accompany me tonight. But in the end...
Darn why am I complaining =.= ...... Speechless....... I kept telling myself to be understanding.
But still I am complaining.. Just a moment of disappointment I suppose..
I am waiting in game, in msn.. Still you are not there..
I don't know if you know how I feel. But I guess you probably don't.
Hours of Stoning makes me backache. Hours of waiting makes me feeling more alone.
Hope you'll be there.

Copied the picture from my brother's blog :X Rainbow after the rain around my house ;D
Nice hor? So rare to see a rainbow around my house(:

Talked to dear ytd =X
And talked till he doze-off ;D
What to say? :D
Love him to bits!

Bao Bei~ I Love You! And I Miss You Much-o!

Baby, I am missing you..

Baby, I am missing you..

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Baby, I Miss You ):



no news from you since the day before... sighs.

Oh manzxzx, Leen is really becoming a OBASAN liao le loh.
Everyday doing household chores. Practicing to be a future housewife le =X
I am count down-ing to my 2 very very very special dates. Can't wait till then lah~~
等不急啦！

不知不觉，已近快要六个月了。虽然这些月来，并非好过。 但也充足的过了。
那一些阻碍我们两也一起度过了。我也知道未来的日子也会有许多的阻碍，但
我很肯定我们也能一起熬过的。对吗? 就让我牵着你的手一起走过那些风风雨雨吧。
不管有多难熬，我会在你身边陪伴你。。跟随你。 这是我对你的诺言。
虽然我也曾经伤害过你，但你还是依旧的无条件爱着我。令我感到很幸福，很快了。
那一些你为我做的点点滴滴都让我很感动也很感激。你曾经说过给你一些时间，你
会很努力的为我建立一个属于我们的家，充满了爱和温情的家。你知道那时我感动地流泪吗？
虽然这不是一个很了不起的梦想。但什么能胜过一个字“家”呢？也许有很多人会觉得我
也未必太容易满足了。但家也是很难建立起来的。 尤其是能和你相爱的人一起亲手建立起来。
就让我陪你度过那些喜怒哀乐和酸甜苦辣吧！^,....,^

*ahhemm* Yes, Leen is here to blog ;\ Where should I start from? ;x

Alright, hmm I met up with Zai Rong on the 20th at Suntec after my interview at Tower 2 :D its hella long since we last meet up. And I am looking forward to meet up with XIU JUAN! Eh sis u reading this bo? Ah si wu, off-day call me go out leh. Sieh ku bo meet liao la! Ki lim kopi also good :X MISS YOU LAH SIS!

*Prays to get a job real soon!*

Last but not least, I miss my dear to the core :\ *Heartache*

my blog kena locked.. Jeez

kinda busy.


Leen L>Jobs :\

Bad things happen after one another.
Is driving me into a corner, driving me crazy soon.
How am I going to stop all this.

S-T-O-P--A-L-L--T-H-E-S-E--S-H-I-T-S

An old song that I love

I Don't Wanna Know

Somebody said they saw you
The person you were kissing wasn't me
And I would never ask you
I just kept it to myself

(Chorus:)
I don't want to know
If you're playin' me
Keep it on the low
Cuz my heart cant take it anymore
And if you're playin' now
Please don't let it show
Oooh baby, I don't want to know
I think about it when I hold you
And lookin' in your eyes
I can't believe I don't need to know the truth
Baby, keep it to yourself


(Chorus:)
I don't want to know
If you're playin' me
Keep it on the low
Cuz my heart cant take it anymore
And if you're playin' now
Please don't let it show
Oooh baby, I don't want to know
Thought you're better then me
Watched you fall asleep
Say you walk away
Don't talk to me
Ooh don't tell me
Better off that way
All that I can say
Stay away from me


I don't even know where your
Whereabouts are how you movin
I know when you in the house
When you cruisin'
This is provin'
My love you abusin'
I cant understand how a man
Got you choosin
Undecided I came and provided
My undivided
You came and denied it
Don't even try it I know when you lyin'
Don't even do that
I know why you cryin'
Im not applyin' no pressure
Just want to let you know
That I don't wan to let you go
And I don't want to let you leave
Cant say I didn't let you breath
Gave you extra cheese
Put you in the SUV
You wanted ice
So I made you freeze
Made you hot
Like the western beats
Last time you invest in me
Cuz if not then its best you leave
holla


(Chorus:)
I don't want to know
If you're playin' me
Keep it on the low
Cuz my heart cant take it anymore
And if you're playin' now
Please don't let it show
Oooh baby, I don't want to know
If you're playin' me
Keep it on the low
Cuz my heart cant take it anymore
And if you're playin' now
Please don't let it show
Oooh baby, I don't want to know
If you're playin' me
Keep it on the low
Cuz my heart cant take it anymore
And if you're playin' now
Please don't let it show
Oooh baby, I don't want to know

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Something to relax myself....

You Would Be a Good Spouse 70% of the Time

You have what it takes to be an amazing wife or husband. You are caring, patient, giving, and romantic. You are willing to work for a marriage. More than anything, you're not about to let your ego ruin a relationship. You are humble and unselfish. And that's the key to being a good spouse.

Your Mood is a 0

You're having the worst mood ever, and possibly the worst day ever. Hopefully things will be looking up for you soon.

Your Depression Level: 72%

You seem to have moderate depression. Your symptoms are bad enough that they're effecting your everyday life. You would benefit greatly from professional help.

Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ISFP)

Your personality type is caring, peaceful, artistic, and calm. Only about 7% of all people have your personality, including 8% of all women and 6% of all men You are Introverted, Sensing, Feeling, and Perceiving.

You Are Ready, Willing, and Able to Commit

You are not scared of commitment in the least. In fact, there's a good chance that you're already committed to someone you love. You are willing to give up a little freedom for relationship stability. And once you're in a relationship, you'll do almost anything to make things work.

This past few days was restless.
I had been thinking way too much... and can't get into sleep.
I somehow lose alot of confidence in myself.
I don't know what should I do. I must be very caution to prevent flaw.

Sighs~ All I want is to live peacefully.. am I asking too much?

I found out a awful secret.

A awfully bad s-e-c-r-e-t.

So awful that I'm afraid.

Can I pretend for that long?

You Are A Blue Girl

Relationships and feelings are the most important things to you. You are empathetic and accepting - and good at avoiding conflict. If someone close to you is in pain, it makes you hurt as well. You try to heal the ones you love with your kind and open heart.

Copied from my emails =X

Me:-

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic. Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.


Bao Bei:-

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

The rest shall not say much =X cause he's MINE.


Yesterday talked to baby till we dozed off without hanging down the phone.. it was 8 hours of talk time when I woke up in the afternoon o__o


Life's filled with colours when you're by my side. Baby I will wait for you. Cause I need you in my life, no matter what I have to do I'll wait for you. Even if it takes the rest of my life. I love you. :)

Yesterday night I sleep at 5+ a.m and woke up around 6 + a.m. Coz its my great-grandma's death anniversary.
Was waiting for baby to call, but he's so tired that after his bath he went to sleep.
My dad do all the cookings. And I take away some food from the coffee shop at Holland.
After praying and stuffs, I send the lunch to my Ah Ma :)

Its been hella long since I last visited her. She was asking about my dear. LOL she is anxious about me having a bf and was concerning about me. And a funny thing that she told me was = *Ling ah, when are you getting marry? Better marry when you are around your 20(s). * Ah Ma was more kan chiong then me when it comes to getting married off =X Love my ah ma lah! And she's also asking when can I bring my dear to visit her, I told her when things are more settle down and when baby's free. She's happy to hear that loh. LOL!

After that went home and stayed in.

I'm still waiting for baby's call! Love you bao bei! <3

Alright..

Great....

Superb.......


Lalala.

Ya la.. I useless, Happy liao boh?
You think I care arh? Say Whatever shit you wanna say.

As long as I still have people who cares about me. For them I TOLERATE.
Don't ever come and step on my tail again. I don't promise, I will not do anything bad!

Not happy go and die loh, don't make your problem my problem.

Qu Si Bah!

Happy 5 months, My dear.

I love you! And You're mine!

Hope I can always be there for you. No matter what happen I'll be there.. For you.

A Short Post :D An Email ^__^

爱一人


如果你不爱一个人,
请放手.
好让别人有机会爱她.
如果你爱的人放弃了你,
请放开自己,
好让自己有机会爱别人.
有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.
人生中有许多种 .
但别让自己为一种伤害.
有些缘分是注定要失去的,
有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,
爱一个人不一定要拥有,
但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.
男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.
女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害,
我选择谎言;
如果谎言是一种伤害,
我选择沉默;
如果沉默是一种伤害,
我选择离开.

如果失去是苦，
你怕不怕付出 ,
如果迷乱是苦，
你会不会选择结束,
如果追求是苦，
你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,
如果分离是苦，
你要向谁倾诉,
好多事情都是后来才看清楚,
好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!


***爱&缘分***
１.她無聊時陪她〃
２.她難過時安慰她〃
３.男生要主動點〃
４.多約女友出去〃
５.不能讓女友主動約〃
６.讓她每天都開心愉快〃
７.要好好對待女友〃
８.順從女友的意〃
９.不要讓她傷心難過〃
１０.當她被欺負要立刻去保護她〃
１１.不要隱瞞女友事情〃
１２.不能背叛女友〃


Bao Bei, I Love You.

This world is filled with all sorts of human beings.

There's afew type that is detest by me.
They are so abhor, loathe, abominate, execrate, despise...

Their doings makes me malevolent about everything.

And now I despised myself. And that they made me to do it.

How I wish I can just perish with them. And so we won't torment others.

Let my agonies reduced to dust.

You might just think that I am insane. To be honest, I am going to be.. just that its sooner or later.

I MISS YOU.

我想你。

blank.. my mind is blank, my heart is blank.. my soul is blank. What am I actually?
Falling off a cliff or almost falling? I want the answers.. I couldn't find any.. What I really wants?
What do I want to know? What? And why? True or false? Will you be there when I fall?
. . . Am I a object? ... aiya.. not i think too much lah.. aiya nobody will understand de la. Better
don't say too much. ....

Today was urh urhhhhh urhhhhhhhhh..

Thomas was on MC. Glad that Colin and David was around today. And queue number went up to 40. Luckily Colin and David was there, if not I and Christina will not know how to handle all these hirers/reliefs. And got my Pay cheque.. Cash cheque lai eh.. tmr must wake up early bank in sian 1/2 Saturday also cannot sleep gao gao.

After work got Department dinner, Recruiment Team and DROs. Actually was at Clark Quay but end up changed to Sakura at Clementi Woods. Buffet dinner, but too many ppl there lah Pai Seh to eat gao gao.. Choose some food and shared with Christina. Sushi lah..those what u call it urh.. those raw fish.. I eat until want to vomit ~__~ Love the cakes most loh.. Chocolate Truffle and Blackforest *yummy yummy* Too bad never take photos.. :\ and Christina and me go off 1st. She longban me in cab to Ave 2 de bus stop then I walk over to the other bus stop and took a bus home. While walking to the bus stop.. I walk through 408, 407, study corner... west coast court.. All the enjoyable moments in the past flash through my mind... The last picture that flashed and stayed.. was my dear. I realised I had been missing him non stop..

He's like.. a part of my life.. I don't know how to describe it.

Ahh~ just now went to Girl's blog and heard a song.. quite an old song...

"数不尽的泪 我又哭了好几回

幻化成蝶 停留在这片落叶

被风化的雪 埋藏在千年以前

我用尽一生的思念只为等著你出现

回忆渐渐凋谢落在我身边

唤不醒原来还跳动的画面

就让我留在轮回的边缘 等一道光线

看见某年某月我们之间 曾经说过的预言

就让他带走你的那瞬间 成为我们的纪念谁能发现我的世界 曾经有过你的脸"

You're like a star, seems so impossible to touch.

Sometimes I just felt so alone, baby.

Its not that I'm not understanding enough. Its that I really really need your assurance.

I don't want to be forgotten by you. I don't want to...

Heart can be fragile.

Baby, I need you. I need your affirmation that I am there in your heart.

Let me winged with fervor of your love.

-Post Deleted-

My promise to you. (:

Great, was late today... Thanks to the recent crowd in the MRT. Too crowded for me to even squeeze in, even though i tried to go to the other door to try my luck to get in. And hella, I missed 3 trains in a row. When I finally get in I was too near to that automatic doors and my hand got hurt by it. The door actually closed and I didn't notice I was too near and my hand was being hurt by the door.. Dumb me -.-

From around 8.45 to 2.30, I was engaging with hirers and reliefs with barely a 5 minuets to take a deep breathe. Then I went lunch with Colin and wooots not much hirer and relief to attend. A time to relax ;X so I blog blog 1st, arbo later in the night I forget and lazy to type already.

Baby Jasper's having his paper today. I am sure he can do well. ^___^ Jy my bao bei!

Bao Bei, jia you! You can do it, I have faith in you!

" I wanted you to be there when I fall. Baby this is how much I needed you.<3"

Sigh. Nobody will understand. Nobody will know. Cause who will ever think of a "nobody"?

I already giving in alots of things. Everywhere is the same, everyone is the same.

I guess only fools would be there for a nobody and a useless ass like me.

Now the same thoughts and feeling I have long ago is back, I don't blame it for coming back to me.

Cause a leopard will never ever change its spots (me).

I am useless. Yes I am. No use consoling me. Cause I am.

Today, Tao Gong Gong.. keep doing things wrongly.. got the wrong agreement for my Super Relief Driver. Photocopied more then the amount of documents i needed. I think thanks to my medicine. Makes me feel drowsy at work. Lucky all the hirers and relief driver was kind enough to understand my situations.

And great, Tony's giving me my salary ought to be given at Aug now its Oct already. But sad enough it wasn't the exact amount I should receive. Darn.. And my Pay Cheque is with Hua Yi.

Hope to get the cheque as soon as possible perhaps tomorrow. I can save/lighten 3 or even 5 person's burden. So I hope I can get it tomorrow.

Life was not sailing smoothly for me, but I know there's baby here with me.

I can do it! I am still as strong as before! I must do it even though it won't come out fine.

"Leen, Jia You!"

Dear, lets Scissors, Paper, Stone! I LOVE YOU! I MISS YOU! MUACKS! <3

Audit the whole day.. Saturday and Sundays is always boring and Monday to Friday is always stressing and busy.. Oh man. Am I gonna stay like this forever? No life.. Everyone is busy with their own things.. Had some tiff with dad -.- kp back with him. BTH. Some times I just don't wanna see his face.

Tomorrow's working. Gonna stress again.. stress stress stresssssssss D:

Sigh.. I miss Jasper baby badly :( Sigh...

When will all the obstacles end?

"baby i wish you were by my side, i miss you."

Lalala.. my blog is dead..

Shall post today. Was rather busy working ain't have time to blog the past few dayszxzxs.

Alright, now I am working as a Sales Admin under Recruitment Team of Premier Taxi. The MD was a good guy :) He tought me lots of things about life. When ever I have a training session with him, he'll start of with talking about life. He is a great man. When he was talking about life somehow I tear.. cause I think of my past, what had I done, I think of my family, my friends and of course my dearest. Really a soul searching moments. And I realised that its true that friends cannot be there for you always.

With dear's support and advise I had stepped a few steps out of my own world, and accepted that I must work hard for everything that I want in life. There's still a long way ahead of me. And I am really glad that I have him, my dear in my life. He was the best I ever met. I really cherish every second with him. I want to live my life with him, I wanted him badly.

I am really contented with my life now.

Taken during his 1st birthday :)

Koko hair long already.
x.x

I thank God.

For letting me, having you by my side.

This tender love you gave me was the best gift.

Baby, I am seriously in love with you(:

Quite a few things happened this few days. I should be glad that some of it is over.
After hearing advise from dear, i had realise that i am seriously roaming around aimlessly.
After that had happened, i have begin to learn. I can't carry on behaving this way.

For the sake of myself, my future, my family and the most important one in my life, my dear.
I have to change for the better. I know actions speak louder than words. For the sake of Trust,
for the sake of everything i need in my life. I need a change. I, myself know this for so long and
why am i still behaving this way? I NEED A CHANGE.

I seriously hope that you will not give up on me, and i hope you can guide my throughout.
I need to change!

LJ SPEC

Its been hella long since i last updated!!

Yesterday was *(&%#%

Nothing much to say. Uploading a short conversation with Little Bird Brain.
Felt sad thou cause i DID not SS down everything!

GEK XIM SI

GEK XIM SI!

SAD DIE ME!

;(

P.S: Thks Hool, Haze and Himi <3

SingPost Road Show @ West Mall last 2 days

Today sales was good! I sold 9 cams while yesterday was 2 only.
Oh man.. Today is the last second day to work with the lovely SingPost stuff.
Tomorrow will be the last. How i wish this road show can last longer.. Working with them is really fun and i enjoyed every second! They are really nice to work with! Like Ah Lian gakgak,
she's duper funny! Talk to her can laugh die me. We will beo those sexy ladies working apposite,
then gossip, then go smoking session with gak gak and gak gak treat me eat kfc ;x And there's AZ, Hazlinda she's the sunshine, she always smiling sweetly ;D And gak Magesh she's super easy to get along with, very cin cia one. And that joker EDDY the gong Xiao Bai LOL! And this old man Philip, the crapper ;x alot jokes one. And myfeet is killinggg me!!!!

Went home, walking alone and started thinking about baby.. was wondering how is he doing now adays.. Miss him to bits.. Bao Bei, love you. Hope to meet up with you soon. Thou things doesn't went smooth for us. We hardly got time for each other. But still my love for you keeps going strong(: Love you, bao bei.

Was home, and daddy + didi is not yet asleep. Dad told my Dua B Bee kor kor side(Mei Chin Rd) people go kill one indian and one injure. Heard from Peter, he hacked the indian 7 times and he walk briefly away and stabbed the knife on to the ground and then walked to the bus stop and sit, cause he knows he can't get away with it and " Yi Ren Zhou Shi Yi Ren Dan". Heard that the indians go disturb the ladies there and being sibei tiko. And the indian whom he wanted him dead wasn't the one who is dead by now infact is the one who got injured. Serve those indians right, who ask them go di siao char boh. But Ah Ben will get his punishment too, mostly a death sentence. Yi Ming Huan Yi Ming... not worth it thou hais.

Some random pic:

Thanks to my new shoes. Blisters and cuts and swallon -.-

The carbon copy of the nine cam i sold today :D

The peeps ;)

Took the pic of the plant when smoking.

This is how i look with minimum make-up and without double eyelid -.-

My little one who greets me 1st when ever i reached home <3