I am feeling very miserable. It sucks hell lot.
I don't want anything anymore. I don't want everything.
Take everything away. Just every single thing, cause it'll never ever make any difference.
Cause I don't deserve anything from anybody. For God's sake and everybody's sake, I apologise for every single thing I had done. I know I had promised some of you, don't ever to talk like this again. Sorry I can't help it.

I don't know who will really care. Sometimes people say they do but in fact they don't.
But for sis, i know you do.. am i right? I suppose so?
Sis, I really really very sad. I know my temper not good. But I really got try to change.
Will you believe me anot? Hais sis, I wish you were here to lend me your shoulder. I want to cry out loud now.. Will you feel ashamed to have a sucky and lousy sister like me? I don't blame you for regretting or feel ashamed by me. Sis, I got alot alot of things to say..You know I only want to spend sometime with him anot? I really never meant to scold him de you know anot.. You know
I also feel very guilty after saying all those stuff to him, you know anot... Sis.. I love him alot you know anot.. This past few months is not easy for me to live you understand mah..? Sis I cannot call you and sms to share my xin shi.. I never pay my bill for 2 months ler. I only can receive incoming calls and sms. I hope you don't mind I type everything here. Sis.. I am feeling very terrible. It hurts alot alot.. jie thks for being there. Jie i think i really shameless siah.