Good! This few days I enjoying much and fed myself like a glutton.

Saturday;

Went out and fetch my stoning kaki at 9pm =X Went Bugis. Ate fries with Nacho and Cheddar cheese. Walk around window shopping. Actually wanted to go for drinking session end up slacked in Juan's house. Used her lappy and watched her msn-ing people. LOL and web cam-ed with people. End up I kept bugging her for food =X very very hungry at 2+ Went down to Swee Choon for Ja Jiang Mian and Beijing Dumplings. Then sit around the what corner talk and talk. Keep see-ing Juan's eye close while I am still fully awake ;x bo bian arh she working mar. She ke lian accompany me all the way ): then ME lah sieh stupid call him for what! Kiam Kan one. =.= Went back to Juan's house at about 6 am? She went wash up and slept. While I am on the phone
Sleep at around 7 am to 8 am. Then Juan woke me up at around 11 am..


Sunday;

Woke up wash up, MSN-ed people again. Juan skipped work to accompany me =X Xiang Long asked for meet up at town. Juan bath-ed early while I am still sleeping. And she's really tired out. Fall asleep as soon as she touched her bed =X. Then I downloaded songs and talk to DJ aniki and Xiang Long. Meet up at 2-3pm OMG, that time I still haven't bath. I told him ok, woke Juan up and wait her dressed up cabbed to my place at 2pm + LOL. Reached home, brother's home. Played around with Koko. Bathed, then Xiang Long reached my place also le. Went off to town at hmm 4 pm + LOL. Met up with Jian Jie and Jia Ming at Heeren. Walked to Far East. Tell you ah, I sieh scared when smoking there. ~__~. Then Bus-ed down to Bugis again ( me and Juan only) LOL. Walk around and Juan bought her heels le. For heaven sake, I didn't buy any heels since last year already. Should go and buy a pair seriously._." Saw Da Xiang there too. And Xian and Sheng is dota-ing there. ~____~ Went coffee shop rest after that. Then Xian and Sheng come. Went to the playground near Juan house and slack. About 3am went MAC. After chatting its about 6 am already, headed to the bus stop and took the second bus home. Reached home daddy's awake. He seems surprise to see me. LOL Washed-up and sleep like a dead log.

Meeting up with Juan & Zhen tmr! <3

Ja Jiang Mian

Dumpling.
I like this doll larh! Wanna be like this, Blinded and Zipped.

She's real tired.

Like crazy women? =X LOL

Slacked. Time: 4 am plus.

My cigarette auto crooked ~__~

Juan VS Da Xiang.

Juan's terriyaki chicken bowl.

All time favourite, Beef Bowl.

Jia Ming and Jian Jie. Jian Jie whats with your expression =X

I can't stop Laughing at Jia Ming. See he glaring at me ;x

LOL.

Juan take de loh =X

Sis. ("V")

-~-Sis-~-

Heels. x,....,x

boy, i still can't get over you.

FUCK YOU! FUCK ME! FUCK THEM!
FUCK THE WORLD. FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!

FUCK THOSE FUCKING EMOTIONS, FUCK THOSE FEELINGS!
JUST FUCKING STOP THE TORTURING!

JUST FUCKING LET ME GONE. VANISH INTO THIN AIR.

FUCK!

MIA.

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY, SHAWN XIE WEN LONG!!!

May all your wish come true! BFF! =DD

Happy birthday Ah Long! =DD PS i think tmr i cannot join your birthday celebration already ):

Today boring die. ); Sore-throat can you please go away?

I still miss you.

ROTTING AWAY.


yea i'm rotting myself awayyyyy. I don't feel good. I think I am going to fall sick soon. I am having muscle ache, when I don't do exercises? -.- Okay I did today. Surprisingly -.- I tried to do a high kick and tadaaaa my leg hurts. How the hell I kick so well when I was still young? Cannot deny that I'm getting old, and aging real fast with my smoking habit. Well who cares? ;D My sore-throat is back again. I am switching my life back to normal wake up in the day and sleeps in the night lifestyle. Trying for 4 days already and its useless. And I think I am again getting use to the "single" life I'm leading right now, lets jia you together my dearest Juan. Face the fact that love's gone and don't ask for any answers anymore. Cause the truth might just kill. So let it be, I believe that the unpleasant emotions and feelings will vanish with time. Come'on, don't dwell over it already okay?

Like what you had said, try to accept other's love?
Even you're also afraid to fall in love again, let alone me. (不要叫我接受他的爱。）
收拾好你那悲伤的心情，尝试不要再难过或留恋了。我也在努力的尝试。那我们一起加油吧！但我没说不准你想他哦，应为我能体谅那相恋人的感觉。

Met up with Juan yesterday =D And looks like everyone is sick. I'm down with flu, Juan's down with cough and Yi Zhen's down with cough too. Woke up at 11.30am yesterday sms-ed Juan no reply so went back to sleep and woke up again at around 2 pm. Met up with her in town, went to Cuppage Point as she want to get the 6 leaf Clover for someone. Didn't know there's 6 leaf clover LOL, is it true that you can get lucky when you have clover leaf with you? If its true, I think I'll get one for myself =X Then walked to Paragon's ToriQ and bought some chicken stuff and pork plus MILK TEA!!<3, cause we thought that Yi Zhen will be working there but instead she's at CK Tang. So went CK Tang to disturb her. Was quite full liao at that time when reached Tang basement talked to Yi Zhen and she dismiss work at 8 so we decided to meet up after she dismiss from work. Then I cannot resist the temptation of the sushi beside ToriQ ._. bought 3 pieces and I ate 2 =X then I regretted... Cause my stomach cannot diegest some food easily one, felt so bloated like going to explode.

Then went Far East looking for clothes for Juan and shoes for me. Juan eyed a vintage necklace while I looking for a cross necklace, can't find the one I like =\ Walk and walk then Yi Zhen called saying she dismiss work already! Wait for her at Far East and same we went into most of the shops but then found nothing suitable for Juan LOL. Then we decided to go bugis, walked past Future State went in and Tadaaa saw one very beautiful dress!! It is a tube dress, with black lace outer, pink satin inner pretty prettyy!! But then too bad for me ;( I don't wear those sexy clothings one. It cost SGD$79.90! Juan's considering to buy or not to LOL! Can see she love that dress liao!

Then cabbed to Bugis 9+ liao everywhere going to close soon. Faster went over to Everlast and buy my shoe then to M)phosis get a pair of slipper with Juan ,bought the same design. LOL eh count leh, we got how many things same same de =X Then to Bugis street, looking for bag lah! Cannot find. =( Then Yi Zhen bought a White satin top, nice can and Juan bought a dress we choose for her. Okay both of them are ladylike, unlike me loh ok I sieh sieh sieh Gu Ban? LOL

Then I bth want to smoke, sit outside Burger King there smoke but afraid leh cause you know lah, now here cannot smoke there cannot smoke already. Then surprisingly I saw Wen Long yea yea I swear I saw him!! Asked both of them to see but Zhen said look like him then Juan said I never see properly is it =.= Juan called him nv pick up. Juan's feeling hungry, wanted Ke Ai Ji so go get Ke Ai Ji. I'm still feeling bloated leh but I still eat Chee Chong Fun and Fries same with Yi Zhen. Juan's having Chicken chop. Then Wen Long call back asked him where is him and true enough he is at Bugis =X Asked him joined us. Guess what. That guy I saw earlier on is him lai de =.= see i told you! Ke lian de him.. went Bugis wanted to fetch his gf from work de end up quarell and broke off. ZZZZZ Why everyone like broke up with gf/bf one. Even Zhen's having hard time now. Seriously I think 2009 bad luck year for me leh =.= Slacked and talked. 11+ Wen Long went home. We continue talk and talk to 12 plus. LOL Then went to send Yi Zhen off.

Then me and Juan walked to where she stay. We had heart to heart session =X LOL Slacked and talked bring up the past wasn't abit nice =.= But then can see how stupid I am. From there I should had learn my mistake already mah but then ....... Then then we talked about my 2 GREATEST REGRETS, Joker and Ying Wen.

1. Regret for treating Her as my best friend. Regret for trusting her way too much. Regret for helping her way too much! Ended up got stabbed millions of time. But thanks her too, if not I won't be having a good sister like Juan =D Cause you brought us together as a enermy and never will you think that now we're as good as real life sisters. Anyway Thank you and FUCK you.

2. Regret for loving him so much. Wasted my 100% love in you lah! Regret giving you way way way too much! Okay I was blinded. It is useless to tell me you're sorry now and blah blah blah. Keep the sorry to yourself. I don't wanna be a stupid idiot who'll forgive and give in to you easily like before anymore. Anyway there's no need to curse you. You had your retribution already. Take Care and Bye!

Talk half way run out of cigarette. Went to buy then back to talk LOL sat at playground and talk talk talk and sing sing sing. Till 4 am, dam it I feel hungry by then went for breakfast/supper? Sit and talk and talk at there. Had dim sum LOLOL by then time finish everything 5 am going to 6 x.x so I took the 1st bus home.

Never regret having you in my life ;D

Juan on phone.
Da B ge! aka Wen Long.

Ke lian Zhen coughing and coughing ;\
Eh... the church loh LOL. cannot blame cos i use phone camera de =X
I totally BUANG at 4 am zzzz

Okay I ate Chee Chong Fun again LOL

Xiao Long Bao. And My LOVE vinegar!!!!

This one power! Banana and Prawn Fritter! The Prawn gao gao one.

This photo is not for the food. See that group of ladys? They are really really really PRETTY!! Serious one PRETTY! Slim and tall! BUT! They're all transwomen. =p

Thanks sis, for being there when I am really really down. Really, you are the one who is true to me the most. Loved me the most.

And still, I missed you much. How I wish, I could find a way to end this.

Out of sudden I miss this song, so I uploded it. =D

Last friday night went over to Gigi house. Before that went Kim Tian 131 met up with my daddy, Peter and Gigi. Had dinner there together with my brother. Dinner was rather funny, all I was laughing all the wayyyyyy almost choke on my food LOL! Cause all the way my brother was tio suan-ed by Peter LMAO! Then he move target to me =.= . Okay after slacking there daddy and us went seprate ways. Us to Gigi house and daddy went home alone. And yea left my dear Shiko at home with daddy =X sure get lots of nagging and scolding bah? Koko LOL! Ok back to Gigi house. Ro, Na and Shadow are really really adorable! And of course you too baby Koko ;D Then at around 3.30 am I brought Ro;Na and Shadow to the void deck, cause they're inviting the deity( Zai Zai ). So from preventing they from barking and misbehave gotta bring them down together with the bark collar. The wind at the void deck was very very very chilling ~__~ regret for not bringing my jacket down with me D: Brother had his hoodie with him =.= and refuse to lend me >:( So I bo bian sit there enjoy free air con x.x. And he slept all the way (*&*(^#$&*! And I did not bring my handphone down also. So I stay awake alone with them all asleep, but Ro;Na and Shadow not as pig as him. They still got wake up pei me kay. Then at around 6+am everything is done. We went up. While inside the lift I was facing inside and didn't notice one stupid Ah Neh actually wanted to go in as well. Well Ro;Na and Shadow was inside the Pet Stroller like those Baby Stroller but slightly bigger, so he didn't know we had dogs with us. He is trying to get in the lift by my right but when he saw the dogs in the stroller he backed off, he said "Can you push it in anot? Please be considerate." Then (Brother was trying to shift the stroller with my help) I was already pissed off alittle le cause he did not said in a nice way but understanding enough we shifted the stroller and kept quiet cause he was a Muslim Indian. Then he *TSKS SHAKES HEAD* Then brother stares at him, me side glared him and folded my arms. He *Tsks shake head "So inconsiderate"* Brother * Eh you tsk what? We moved the stroller already right! Can't you be patient abit?* I kept quiet and then asked my brother to relax. He * Got what I got patient what. You all stand there don't want to move* Brother *We moved isn't it? Whats your company number? I wanna call your boss and complain you.* As he was delivering Newspaper. He * CALL LAH, THINK I SCARE AH* Me pissed to the max shouting * EH YOU ENOUGH ALREADY NOT?! WE DID MOVE IT ANYWAY! I WAS FACING INSIDE AND HOW DO I NOTICE YOU THERE? YOU DIDN'T EVEN SAY EXCUSE ME! THEN WHAT YOU WANT?* Brother * COME GIVE ME YOUR BOSS NUMBER I CALL HIM NOW* He * eh relax ah talk only lah* Brother * TALK WHAT, GIVE ME YOUR BOSS NUMBER. I WILL TALK TO HIM* He * CALL LAH CALL LAH YOU THINK I SCARE AR?* Brother *COME GIVE ME NUMBER WHAT'S YOUR BOSS NAME?* HE * MY BOSS NAME JOHNSON* Then lift's door opened he walked out. Brother *YOU HUM JI IS IT?* He came back and slammed the door opened as it was closing automatically *WHAT WHAT?* Brother *COME LAH GIVE ME YOUR BOSS NUMBER* He trying to mumble something we can't hear but trying to act fierce at that time then Me slammed the door as it is closing again and shouted *WHY, YOU GOT NO GUTS AH!!* He act act and walk down the stairs. Nabeh de loh the cb Ah neh, he trying to get in the lift by my right le mar, cause inner right side is my brother, inner left is the pet stroller outer left is me. When noticing got dogs, he kp-ed then why in the 1st place before he gets in don't want say excuse me to me? Then who is the one who is inconsiderate? We already shut up and moved still say so much, and all three dogs didn't even make a single noise they did not bark or growl. PS to those who are muslim or malay, but seriously I hate this type of Malays/Muslims cause they think they big fuck. Mai gong liao say liao I angry again =.=
See picture.

Shina, Koko's Mummy =DHandsome Shiro, Koko's Daddy =D
Peter, Gigi, brother's leg and Ah Ro

Nana

Shadow;Shina

I like crop ears :\

Pretty Shina ;D

Shiro and Shina, Na looks like a puppy due to her tiny size =D

Nana again~

Ah Ro~

Shadow; Koko's big brother aka Ah Pai and Barbarian.LOL =X

Very hard to capture him in cam -.-

Shiro's smiling ;)

Pretty Nana with Yi Lin Jie Jie =X She loves my cuddle and loves me to carry her.
Okay outdated picture LOL. Found all my missing lighters while clearing my computer table zzz

Lighter lost and found -.-

Maybe what Peter and Gigi said were right. I was the one who make you had high-blood pressure and all those ill-ness. My impression as your daughter wasn't good to everybody, your friends and every of the relative. Even some relatives looks at me differently and treated me differently like you, I can feel that. And I personally knows it. I am a human, I can see I can feel. I know I am your greatest disappointment in life. You pinned so much hope in me. And yet I letted you see me in the police station in the past. From that day onwards I've crushed all you hopes, faith and trust in me. Years had passed, I haven't even really been nice to you and you also on and off being nice silently and being not nice openly. Its true that Peter and Gigi said we had communication break downs due to the age gap and the lifestyle we're living differently. And they too knows I hate you but still I respected you as my dad. Its true that I hate you just as I hated mummy like before when she leave us. But had you ever think that mummy is actually more understanding then you do? Be it because of the guilty she have or she's truly wanting to understand me, but as least she understands me more. I am not as hypocrite as some people. I don't like it I say it. And of course my friends and Peter, Gigi knows that I think most people are hypocrite. Most people around me are hypocrite. But I know who are not. They said, maybe now I will say if there's one day you're going to leave us, leave this world I might not shed a tear. But who knows if that day comes and I really don't shed a tear? Why am I so cold towards you? Because I'm afraid. I am afraid that what I do is all wrong to you, what I say is all wrong to you as well. Thus I choose not to talk to you. Cause, to me whatever I say and do is all wrong to you. And to you indeed, I AM THE WRONG.

If only you had try harder to understand me, understand what I go through, understand what I want and understand how I feel. I don't think things will become this bad like now.