Purposeless

Happy Belated Birthday!

My dear Juan! (Off-day then pass you your present kay? :D)

Ain't late for work today.
Work till 12 am. 23.53 last bus I missed. Luckily can claim cab fare. LOL.
As usual, nothing special happening. Life's bored and purposeless.
Feel like closing down my blog. No use posting. I have not decided yet though.
Or perhaps I'll put private.

Thanks everyone for cheering me up (:
But I'm no longer that strong. As least I have you all to support me ^^
I'll just live my life for the sake of helping my boss to work. ( Swee boh boss?) *Laughs*
Work Sleep Eat & Work Sleep Eat, majiam no life.

Stephyyyy! Yea, I'll confine to you when my heart feels like going to burst. Hahaha!
Then you'll hear all my grandmother story.
But I miss him leh.. How? ):
No chance liao, no hope liao ):
No marry with the one I love liao ):
No baby with the one I love liao ):
Hahahah, I everyday tell you the same thing -.-

Kns, I feel so down inside still can act happy. I siao liao.

Kay mai say so much. I go watch tv. Bye bye.

Just another day without you.

I'm getting crazy.

I miss you. I miss you.

I miss him ):

I'm at lan now. L4D!!!
Kill Kill Vent Vent and Kill and Vent again.

Sighs. I don't know what to do now. I wish we can patch things up. But fat hope.
Even if I change he won't be back again. Why am I always regret when things got out of control?
I don't how to describe the fucking feeling. It sucks. He won't be there asking me to sleep, asking me to go home early again. I'm actually missing him so much now. How? What to do?

I have to go now. Walking in the night street is sure relaxing. Well. I'll be fine.

很忙 - 容祖儿

你总爱说事情太多 时间不够 而我也总是努力 找理由 让自己
来不及想 以后
以为 终究会 等到幸福的时候
等到花也开了 温暖了天空却 变灰暗了

来不及回头 回头太罗嗦 而你我很忙
忙著往前跑却忘了 把感动一路珍藏
已来不及回头 回头已是空 是你我太忙
当逃亡变习惯 我只想痛哭一场 喔

所有快乐的难过的 麻木接收
而忙碌竟是我们 用现在 换未来
最习惯的 理由
也许看著花 绽放的一刻最美
等到花也开了 温暖了天空却 变灰暗了
已来不及回头 回头已是空 是你我太忙
当逃亡变习惯 我只想 痛哭一场 喔
你总是爱说 时间不够

He's done with.

It's all over.

I've got no right.

Life's like this... I've got nothing to say, nothing left.

Goodbye, my love.

"Out of sudden I feel like pouring everything that's in my heart. But I also want to keep it to myself. I can't find anyone to talk my heart out. I don't know what to do. really don't know. Keep to myself? And just make myself gong gong in the night? I really wish he were there. Nah, I'm not qualified to. Even my sorry is valueless. Useless. Hah. Now I see, I'm actually that lousy, that bad. Now you guys know, so why do you still want to befriend with me? Stop being a friend to me. I belong to those who don't deserve anything from anyone. Don't pity me. Bu Zhi De okay. How I wish I was dead, and donate my organs to people who deserve to enjoy and live more? Dammit, 9pm only I'm blah-ing rubbish? LOL? Laugh all you want. I want to do anything before I make this decision. Thanks if you care. But sorry, you know I don't deserve it. Take care till then. Nevertheless, I love him the most, yes you, if you're reading this. I know you'll say '' You're not qualified to love me.". No motivation to live on. No reason to live on. Now I'm living for nothing. Sit back and relax like an idiot. Wasting my life away like burning paper turning into ashes. And Blah Blah Blah. Too much, just too much. You wouldn't know what I've been through, although I know you've been through alot.

Bye."

You're still the one.

Thanks baby, I like it alot. (: Muacks. Love you.

Chao Tah dumpling anyone?

Okay, its really time for me to update.

Today no programme. Tsk.

Went for L4D with Eugene instead. Caicai was there too.

After L4D went home. Now, I'm obsessed with L4D.

Met my beloved scandal Lynn & Nut on Sun for yukiyaki!

Glutton right LOL! But can't finish everything. -.- I da pao-ed the sushis in a plastic bag and throw it away secretly LOL! Met Steph & Co. in the night went Little Heaven. (: Got home at about 8 in the morning. Well I overslept in the bus. My first time man.

My dearest JLJJ, I'm sorry that I've neglected you.

No matter what, I love you the most. It's rather sad to hear what you've said to me.

It's heartbreaking, but still I love you most.

I do hope I can be there for you.

Gotta sleep now. Have to work later.

rotting away

Oh well, I can't get into sleep. Or rather I was waiting for a call important to me.
Went home straight after working last night. Boring. I'll be reporting to work in 4 hours time.
After working meeting Skye jie later in the evening.. I don't know why am I still hesitating to go or not to.
Sometimes I just feel really tired.

I hope someone will understand me.

(Could you be the one then?)

ily dear<3

Last night had a heartily girls talk with Steph and Fel at Little Heaven (:

Signed a facial promotion for $188. I am broke ): Gah I want a LV bag lah!

Today went home straight after work. Audit awhile with dear, audit now kinda boring already.

Played for three years already now then sian.. power. I think we'd grown up already.

I have to plan for my studies next year. Kinda stress sia, also don't know I stress for what.

Appeal for Nursing course in ITE or apply private school for O? Got to save for studies and LV bag. Don't care I die die want to buy a LV bag! Buying labels with money you earned is totally a different feeling.

Later working at 5pm. God bless me, don't be late.

Going to meet Skye jie on sun. God bless me more on sunday okay? *LOL*

I'm so so so so HAPPY!

HAHAHAHA

I'm over the moon tonight.

Filled with joy.

Exhilarated. (:

ily.