Bitterly Sweet-

爱。。。。？

2011-04-14T11:54:00.004+08:00

Fuck You.

2011-02-15T00:34:00.001+08:00

Valentines' Day.

Straight Through My Heart

2011-02-10T18:04:00.002+08:00

I just can't take the pressure.
How I can escape it?
I don't know.

Nobody says it will be easy.
But its very difficult for me.
Too difficult.

Why so difficult?
....

Plug it in and turn me on`

2010-12-16T11:30:00.004+08:00

"Always will be time to let you know;

The way I feel when you take hold;

One single touch from you, I'm gone;

Still get the rush when I'm alone;

I think it is time I let you know;

Take all of me, I will devote"

"I want you to take over control."

;)

Will be seeing my baby tomorrow! He's mine for 2 & a half day this week & he'll be going to Taiwan for holi's. ): I cannot imagine how bad it can be when he's not around with me! I'll miss him like there's no tomorrow.

Ken's someone like no others. He's always giving his best to me. And I'm glad for that. He's the one who reignited the spark in me again. And always encouraging me to strive for my dream, my future. He gave me full support both mentally & physically. The best happy pill available for me. And he loves Shiko as well! :D

Baby will be meeting me tomorrow night. And we're going down to take a look at the DJ Mixing Console as he is saving up for one.

Work is tedious now. Get back to work ):

dirty bit-

2010-11-23T12:01:00.003+08:00

I'm so in love with this Black Eye Peas song The Time (Dirty Bit) and Pitbull's Hey Baby (Drop it to the floor) FT T-PAIN luh!

"Oh I had the time of my life and I never felt this way before And I swear this is true and I owe it All to you you you you you"

"OH BABY BABY"

Alright back to life. Yesterday the whole from morning till the clock hits 12am I was texting this someone. Yes its almost the whole of yesterday! I couldn't imagine that I can actually chat so much after that JLJJ. It's surprising!

And till now we're still texting (Y)

And I hope those jerk can really stop pestering sweetie.
Its irritating you know?!

Something whisper in my ears and said

2010-11-15T14:05:00.005+08:00

"You are not alone."

And I think true enough that I am not the only one who think and feel that way.
As long as I want to help myself, I can get over it. I'm glad that I have friends to guide me, giving me moral supports that I've never feel anyone care for me like this anyway before. I don't know how long I need to fully get rid of this. Of course I hope I can kick that out of my life. And please, I'm not crazy I do not need a doctor.

And to that someone oh well YM, please DON'T TALK TO ME anything about patching back or the past or blah blah blah.
I'm not interested at all. Not even a bit.
Don't remind me how disgusting you are. I will never ever end up together with someone like you ever again. And I swear I shall declare what you done in the past.

This time round I will surely Open My Fucking Eyes Big Enough to see before I choose. You guys give L.O.V.E a bad name. Liars, bastards, betrayer and hey even my lovey boy Shiko is more loyal and honest than you guys. Please be ashamed now.

Saturday's night fever

2010-11-07T20:49:00.003+08:00

Rebel with babes Stephy and Jiaxin yesterday night. It was super crowded and humid. Still it was a great night! <3>:{
Left at about 3am plus.

This morning, its my dad's 1 yr death anni.
Monk came over to chant prayers and combined my ancestors with his. Time really fly. I've converted to a full-timer working for PK's dad.

I hope I can do my best.! :}

I ain't stupid.

2010-11-04T15:05:00.003+08:00

I maybe silly, foolish or dumb.
But I am not Stupid.
So don't talk to me like I am stupid.

And I will not be so dumb to fall in your trap again.
I will not dwell on or cling to the thoughts I've once wished and hope (all about you).
No matter what, I will still brace myself up and keep going strong even without you or even if I can't.
And its not like I can't live without you (like Mariah Carey's Without You), just that at the point of time I'm too dumb to put too much hope in that kind of relationship which is unrealistic.

You're such as wimp by the way, you know you can't hide the lies from me anymore.
You leave too much leakages to your lies, wimp.

Living off the earnings of a women.
That's the reason why you don't have to work.
All you need is just your voice and photos of a stranger.
Sucking their lives away. Gigolo.

And got your family to help you to play their roles.
I bet whole of your family are swindlers.

Anyway, your retributions will come sweeping in the way.
In the end, you're the one left with nothing but a bad name.

so intoxicating

2010-10-07T00:12:00.003+08:00

DOPE.

POISON.

When can you come to mama again?

Trust?

2010-08-21T04:11:00.004+08:00

Awaiting for 2011 February &
November.
Our Leap Years x]
There's so many things I wanna do with you
for my whole life.
There's so many dreams I wanna achieve with
you.
I want you be my guardian angel to witness
& share my happiness when I achieve my dreams.

I trust you, like how you trust
me.

Trust? This is the biggest JOKE.

A steel knife in my windpipe

2010-08-20T04:34:00.006+08:00

"I can't tell you what it really is, I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now it's a steel knife in my windpipe
I can't breathe but I still fight while I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right it's like I'm in flight
High off her love, drunk from my hate, it's like I'm huffin' paint "

Baby don't you know.

2010-08-15T05:32:00.002+08:00

So in love with this song!

Oh yea, I've done my 1st shave down on my precious Koko without knowing how to hold a clipper and without anyone teaching me. *Proud of myself* LOL.
Just shaved to maintain the schnauzer clip, his 1.5 inch long hair on his whole half body was gone.
He look so much better now.

Alright my bed time now :C

Busy with work & life.

2010-07-20T21:55:00.002+08:00

I'm sooooooo tired.
Don't even have the time to blog.
How many more months I have to wait before I can enlist in the course?
Now this is my life. I don't yearn for a bf or a relationship, I'm too sick of it.
Just wanna achive what I want.

Living in this solitary way is Oh-so-Peaceful. (:

I don't care.

2010-06-24T13:33:00.002+08:00

Note to those: Don't need to say anything on the web. If you want and got the guts, come straight at me. Face To Face. Don't say ''You want you come loh'' & etc. Coz, you are the one finding fault with me. If you really want to find fault with me don't bother to do it online in the web. Don't you think that is childish & time wasting? Coz I don't even care. Anyway, FYI I'm actually laughing your doings off my ass. You're such a amusing creature. :D

It will be a waste. Don't you think so?

Well, I'm very free today that explain why this post being created.

Now I ''See You No Up'' ^^v direct translation for you. x)

When I say Te Amor

2010-06-07T10:08:00.003+08:00

How alone can it be?

My desktop sucks big time. The 3rd time it went dead, fix it for 2 times already. Have to buy a new one. Now I'm using my brother's lappy and no audition for me. DAMN.

Back home from Gigi's place yesterday night. And I hope she'll be fine when I'm not around with her. Have been staying over for quite sometimes now. Haha and I will be at her place frequently now.

Now that I'm old enough, but I still think I don't have any qualities of being an a adult.
I couldn't make choices for myself. I'm always asking for opinions. Tell me, what am I going to do? Now I'm walking this stage of life with different point of view in life.

I have a choice of what I can be in future, a Pet Groomer & a Enroll Nurse.
Both are my dreams, what I should do to choose between these two?
I can be a Pet Groom after I learn how to groom them and it takes not more then 2 years.
I can be a Nurse after I complete my studies in Maths & Nursing course it will take up more then 3 years. And now, to be independent early or later? Gahhh my brain's gonna explode.

You said you're afraid, I say I'm afraid too. When two hearts are racing for each another, but the minds with thoughts of these. Whose hearts wouldn't feel withdrawal? Despite the feeling of withdraw, I'm still think of you as much as before, and I still loves you. But being together back again hasn't cross my mind. Hurting you I'm also hurting myself in a way or two. We have no answer of how we can be in the future roads. When I say I love you, what your mind are thinking of? I wouldn't know.

I still have so much to fulfil for myself. Only till now, I learn how to love myself. And not just put all the love on the other half.
I wanna visit the doctor for my skin problem, for my fatty issues and a complete health check.
Kinda worried for my health...

All right going to accompany my sweetie pie Shiko now!

Te quiero; Te echo de menos

2010-05-03T23:50:00.007+08:00

M'aimes-tu? Vous me manquez? - JLJJ.

How I wish I could have make the right choice.
How I wish I can make the time go back.
If I have one wish, I wish I never think about this decisions at all.
So that, you won't be in this state feeling all this stress.

Sorry my love, its all my fault.
I love you then and I still love you now.
I kept this in my heart so nobody could know it from the start.

Bastard.

2010-04-28T09:02:00.003+08:00

If you're thinking I'll forgive or forget this matter after slapping and punching you.
You are so WRONG.
I'll never forget or forgive you on this.

Accusing me not loving you and missing Jasper Leong. And I admit I'm missing him. I can't easily forget about him. Coz after all he is the one whom I love so much before YOU.
But lovey dovey with another girl at my back is a big NO.

If I didn't have the heart for you, why will I fucking let you continue staying with me?
I thought giving you cold shoulders could really give you a wake up call.
But instead of getting better you are getting FUCKING worst then before.
If you can't handle me at my worst, then you don't deserve me at my best.

Now I totally agree I have stamps sticking on to my eyeballs. So fucking pa jiao.

Fuck you this big cannon. Guys like you don't deserve any chance.

Fucking C.B!

从不存在

2010-03-22T11:56:00.004+08:00

我爱我盼

只可惜你不在

我爱上的从来只是幻影

从不存在

我爱我盼

只怕心已不在

说好彼此要真心对待

说过的话变成了负债

不能向你讨的爱

我怎能锁在心上

说好彼此要真心对待

已经证明撞上了冰山

不能为你留的爱

我最好忘得痛快

JLJJ

Kill me.

2010-03-17T06:04:00.003+08:00

I'm still so bereaved.
I know what's gone is gone.
But I can't find a way to live happily.
Sometimes I think I am a complicated person who I don't even understand myself.
Why am I still so grief-stricken?
Not only because of my dad but also this very person.
I found out that I've lost my smile. I don't really smile from my heart even since then.
I guess, the only happiness I have now is my little love, Shiko my pet dog.
And the Nursing course I appeal I really do hope I can be approved.

Friends of mine are all getting married and having babies.
Kind of envious. Then it suddenly struck me. 10-10-10.
It this possible in the first place. I'm starting to think of it so much.
And I come out with a "impossible." although I really wish it can be possible.
All the pieces I gathered and stick up has too many skepticism. So many doubts.
Like, why is there always excuses for not meeting up? How can it be this and that.
He leave too much puzzle for me to solve. All most all are unsolvable. Even if it can be solved there's still too many confusions.

I feel that was to hide something from me. And thus leaving me guessing this and that.
I got tired out. Maybe you might think why hasn't I get over this yet.
To be honest, though lots of mysteries he's the one who make me feel so wanna settle down. And bingo, I still misses him and I want to solve all the puzzles!
But on the other hand, I kept reminding myself not to.

See that is why I say I think I am a complicated person. Gahh.

Let it go please and forget about it.

My life, a bed of black roses tinted crimson.

2010-02-19T09:32:00.003+08:00

Hey-ya CNY's getting over eh. Hah, this CNY to me is so meaningless.
How can a family be happy with a missing member? Laughs.
What a joke heaven played on me urh... Well, it's life nothing last forever.

2 is better than 1? Memories? All this blah blah blah, love sucks as much as life.
But still, we humans kept falling in love even though it sucks so much.
Worst is we fall in love with the WRONG one. And worst of the worst, sometimes we just can't simply forget about it. Darn isn't is? Why bother to love those who'd fucking hurt you?
Cause they simply knows we're totally in-love with'em and then they can start all their shits.
It's fucking wrong to do that seriously. Why don't they have retributions? God gotta Fuck em hard.

I'm always ranting for the same old damn thing again and again.
I wonder, am I regretting it now.

Goodbye to you, once my invisible lover.
It is a high price to pay to fall in love with someone like you.
And it's a love with no outcome NO NOTHING.

They are the same. They're, the silent murderer.

2010-02-03T16:27:00.005+08:00

I've caged myself at home. I refuse to get in contact with anyone except for Anu.
Anu, my boyfriend now who had been through all the downs with me ever since the first day he said he would be there.
And true enough, he did. But why? Why can't you do the same as well JLJJ?
Cause you were just using me like a kid playing with the toy. Isn't it.
And now I don't even know why do I still think of you at times. I really don't.

Life's is so meaningless at all. Imagine, every one's blaming you for the death of someone.
And yea, they pointed fingers exchanged remarks saying ''You're/She's the cause of the death of your dad''. And my dear dear mother, she yelled at me when we was there to collect the remains of my passed away dad at the mortuary accusing me of causing his death infront of every relative and every of my father's friends. Cool huh? And yea that makes me a murderer.

One thing they didn't know, they long ago murder me. I'm just a zombie-fied human walking on earth. Interesting urh? Well I do agree I murder my dad, if I had stepped out of my house earlier I could have met him halfway to the MRT station and maybe I could have just save him.
Stated in the death certificate of my dad, Hypertensive Heart Disease. And you all blamed me of causing him to have Hypertention which lead to his death?

Have you ever wonder, who is the one who make life so difficult in the first place? My dear Mum. It was you. If you hadn't divorce with father when he is out of job, leaving us behind with nothing at all. Let us be motherless and being mock by other people and being bully just because of your selfish reason. If is was not you, I could have strive better. All because I don't have mother people treat me in a different way. I start to hate everything. I hated every single thing in my life. And a old-fashioned strict father like mine, do you think life's good? But still I pull through, and whatever I've done seems wrong. Where the hell did I go wrong? Being compared since secondary school isn't good at all. I did my best in my studies and finally got 2nd in class when I was in secondary two. I thought this will make my father happy and feel proud of me. But alas, he just sit there saying its not good enough and shakes his head throughout. But he praised my brother when his result was far more worst then mine. He got all just passed not even a top 10 in class. Since then, I really hate schooling and you might have guessed right, I become rebellious. I fought with people, I make trouble everywhere.

And then I become so useless, why? Cause to my dad, everything I've done was wrong or it was not good enough, never good enough. So I just do whatever I like. Till then, I always wanted. The taste of drugs. In my sec school life it was just Contact Cement and the pill 5. Then I went for coughing syrups, 5, 15, ecstasy, ketamine. I love ecstasy the most. It was a psychoactive drug with hallucinogenic like properties. (Shall not elaborate more) Afterall, I've stop taking drugs. Its a promise to my dad as well as my bf and my beloved sister.

Then someone who had been through what I am going through now showed up. She talk to me like no one else did. She understand what I'm feeling and everything. It was true that in the first place my dad, my mum, my brother, my relatives did not try to understand me. Cause to them I'm difficult to dealt with. Now, she had stand up for me everyone tries to amend their way towards me. But so sorry, I wouldn't want fake pretender. Cause I know, eveyone of them are all fake. She is my cousin, Cousin Lynn. I really appreciated what she had done for me. And the only one I opened up my heart and confided in her.

But, it won't change the fact that I don't trust anyone in the family except for cousin Lynn.
Cause, they all are just pretenders.

I'm okay now. Cause I know, there's a sky above every one's head. And its the same sky.

My gum's killing me. I have a huge swell at the wisdom tooth area. It's hurting for me to eat or drink. I hope this torture could end faster. Its affecting my speech as well. ):

If by any chance you were reading this, the Song Cry Me Out is for you. -JLJJ.

E Against The World.

2009-11-29T04:46:00.003+08:00

WTF!

I just can't simply communicate to you all cannot ah?
I like to communicate in game cannot ah?
I like to confide to my friends only cannot ah?
Big Crime Is It?
I FCK YOU LAH.
CB this is crime ah?
Then you fcking hella go ask government set this cb law lah!
TMD Seriously leh now is THE WORLD AGAINST ME leh cb.

Come lah Come lah, all come say and blame and point finger at my lah cb.
Animal also got their limit let alone human lah. CB you all human I not human lah?
TMD you go suck dick lah.

CB. Mai act act in front do other thing behind lah. Show people how good you are but too
bad lah I see through all you acting lah. CB ALL FCKING FAKE.
Your church people so good ask them be your sister lah CB.

I tell you this lah, I MAKE SURE WHEN I EARN ENOUGH I WILL FCKING MOVE OUT OF THE HOUSE.

YOU STRESS I NOT STRESS? YOU SAD I NOT SAD?

I'M TELLING YOU THIS LAH. YOU STRESS LAN JIAO LAH YOU.
AND I SAD LAN JIAO LAH.

IS WHAT YOU ALL DO THAT MAKES ME FEEL THAT HEY FAMILY?
WHAT IS FAMILY? I CAN ONLY FEEL MY FRIEND UNDERSTAND ME AND
KNOWS HOW I FUCKING FEEL LAH OKAY.

KNN CB WHOEVER OUTSIDE GONNA MAKE FUN OF THIS
I SERIOUSLY TAKE CHOPPER GO UP FIND YOU ONE. BELIEVE IT OR JUST WAIT AND WE SHALL SEE.

FAMILY? _l_! I DON'T HAVE ONE.

NOW IS EILEEN AGAINST THE WORLD LAH HOR.

I love you dad.

2009-11-26T10:44:00.003+08:00

Hi all.

Thanks for all of your care and concern.
Really appreciated.

I know everything happened much too fast too sudden. But don't worry, me and my family are doing fine. When this kind of things happen, I infact learned alot of stuffs.
The beautiful and ugly sides of people.
Lol.. All the beautiful people thanks alot, really.
All the ugly people, didn't know this will actually shows your colour? Too bad, I see it all.
Thats why the beautiful people said I am too STUPID to believe and being too nice to you UGLY people. Once bitten twice shy. Now just fuck off, out of my life.

Now I know, what's before my eyes are real and are meant for me to cherish and treasure it.
Those who act act, hide here hide there, say but never do one don't need to act as if like you CARE, when I'm just something for your USE only. I hope this is obvious enough to tell you who you are. Who knows, the name you gave could be a fake one too.

I'm getting smarter? *Laughs*

Bye.

I rock your tits!

2009-11-18T08:28:00.003+08:00

Well not really a post eh.

Why some ''human?'' are behaving is such a puerile way, why don't they have originality? It is because, they're brainless or they are just totally imbecile?

It is really that hard to think or express "yourself" in an independent and individual manner or you're really lack of ability?

Or was it you wanna be my clone?

Lol. But please don't look at me like I'm just like one of you.
Cause, you're a harlot. And I'm not.
Understand the difference between us. Clearly stated here already.

YOU = HARLOT. AND I'M NOT.

Well we all know, you would do anything for the sake of labels and cash.

(Y) (:

Rocking Tits.

2009-11-11T02:54:00.003+08:00

Someone just farted. (:

Life's too enjoyable. I couldn't bother about small things that's happening.

And oh ya, my dearest Bro (Stanley)♥ is coming back already! Supped eh! :D

What about now?

2009-11-01T06:30:00.002+08:00

I'm going to work later on, but I still can't get into sleep.
So I decided to post now, as my blog is really rotting away this time.
What's wrong with me? LOL.

I'm so used to it now seriously. Ain't going to mention alot here.
I feel like giving up. I'm tired. Really. The limit is really up.
I can't always be like this waiting and waiting. Really.
My heart died on me, without regrets.
Its hard for me to go through all this.
It feels so sucky to be like this.
End of this ranting.

I had my hair-extension already! :)
LOL! So what if its fake? My hair, my problem!
No happy? Go suck your mother nipple then. And yes I know you will sure to say something about me. AND, yes I'm obviously referring to AH BI that slut. HAHAHA!

Man, I wish I could just take afew days off and rest myself mentally and physically.
I'm afraid that I cannot take it. TIRED LA PLEASE.
Feels like I can faint and fall sick anywhere anytime.

Alright, I should go prepare now!

See you folks! Maybe some days later? ;)

2009-10-08T03:24:00.002+08:00

Love Zodiac Profile- Taurus

If you are Taurus:

You are an extremely gentle and caring lover. You are totally loyal in your relationships. You prefer to be in a serious relationship. You are a very understanding lover. You love to be pampered by your loved one. At times, you get very possessive about your partner. Your partner loves you for the intimacy and affection you show. You are a tender lover and do not show too much aggression. You tend to be open in your relationships. You do not hide things from your partner and expect the same in return.

Your kissing style:

Your kisses are very soft and memorable. You love to proceed in a slow manner.

To attract you, the opposite sex must be:

cook great food for you, pamper you, be dependable and honest, etc.

You are more compatible with - Leo, Scorpio, Virgo, Capricorn

You are less compatible with - Sagittarius, Gemini, Aries

(LOL?)

Your Chinese Astrology Sign- Snake
Qualities - Amiable, Altruistic, Honorable, Sexy, Philosophical, Intuitive, Sharp
More Compatible with - Rabbit, Dragon & Rooster
Less Compatible with - Monkey & Pig
Lucky Season - Spring
Lucky Month - May
Lucky Stone - Agate
Lucky Numbers - 1, 2, 4, 6
Lucky Color - Red & Blue
Polarity - Yin

Your Chinese Astrology Sign- Dragon
Qualities - Flamboyant, Competitive, Attractive, Lucky, Strong, Charismatic, AmbitiousMore Compatible with - Rat, Tiger & Snake
Less Compatible with - Ox & dog
Lucky Season - Spring
Lucky Month - April
Lucky Stone - Amethyst
Lucky Numbers - 3, 4, 5, 6
Lucky Color - Gold & Black
Polarity - Yang

More Yin
You are more Yin than Yang. Yin and Yang are two complementary qualities. They make up the whole. The qualities of Yin are characterized as negative, passive, dark, soft, and correspond to the nighttime.

Its really up to me to believe. LOL.

Unbreak My Heart.

2009-10-08T01:24:00.004+08:00

Overdue picture:

Sorry was being lazy to blog. Hehs.

Well, it seems to be history repeated over and over again each and everyday. Unless I meet up with girlfriends or friends. But its kinda hard. Haha!

My fur kid Shiko is older. Yes and that means I am getting older too. :\ Well, didn't get to give him a big celebration. Hope I can repay him his birthday celebration on the 13th.

Sighs, is it true or it was just your lies? I'm asking this over and over again to myself. Cause I know, if I ask you there will be no answer found. Sometimes, what did they said really make sense. I often choose to believe in whatever you've said. But this time round, it sounds so true that I'm starting to have questions all over my mind. And more 'WHYs?" are coming to haunt me. If you're really lying and playing around please tell me so. Its has been more than a year already. Stop cheating on me if you are. You wouldn't know how it felts. I keep wonder and wonder, making myself even more depressed with all the happenings recently.

I don't wanna think anymore. Stop stressing and vexing me out.

Purposeless

2009-09-19T01:00:00.003+08:00

Happy Belated Birthday!

My dear Juan! (Off-day then pass you your present kay? :D)

Ain't late for work today.
Work till 12 am. 23.53 last bus I missed. Luckily can claim cab fare. LOL.
As usual, nothing special happening. Life's bored and purposeless.
Feel like closing down my blog. No use posting. I have not decided yet though.
Or perhaps I'll put private.

Thanks everyone for cheering me up (:
But I'm no longer that strong. As least I have you all to support me ^^
I'll just live my life for the sake of helping my boss to work. ( Swee boh boss?) *Laughs*
Work Sleep Eat & Work Sleep Eat, majiam no life.

Stephyyyy! Yea, I'll confine to you when my heart feels like going to burst. Hahaha!
Then you'll hear all my grandmother story.
But I miss him leh.. How? ):
No chance liao, no hope liao ):
No marry with the one I love liao ):
No baby with the one I love liao ):
Hahahah, I everyday tell you the same thing -.-

Kns, I feel so down inside still can act happy. I siao liao.

Kay mai say so much. I go watch tv. Bye bye.

Just another day without you.

2009-09-18T02:35:00.002+08:00

I'm getting crazy.

I miss you. I miss you.

I miss him ):

2009-09-17T03:06:00.003+08:00

I'm at lan now. L4D!!!
Kill Kill Vent Vent and Kill and Vent again.

Sighs. I don't know what to do now. I wish we can patch things up. But fat hope.
Even if I change he won't be back again. Why am I always regret when things got out of control?
I don't how to describe the fucking feeling. It sucks. He won't be there asking me to sleep, asking me to go home early again. I'm actually missing him so much now. How? What to do?

I have to go now. Walking in the night street is sure relaxing. Well. I'll be fine.

很忙 - 容祖儿

2009-09-16T14:30:00.001+08:00

你总爱说事情太多时间不够而我也总是努力找理由让自己
来不及想以后
以为终究会等到幸福的时候
等到花也开了温暖了天空却变灰暗了

来不及回头回头太罗嗦而你我很忙
忙著往前跑却忘了把感动一路珍藏
已来不及回头回头已是空是你我太忙
当逃亡变习惯我只想痛哭一场喔

所有快乐的难过的麻木接收
而忙碌竟是我们用现在换未来
最习惯的理由
也许看著花绽放的一刻最美
等到花也开了温暖了天空却变灰暗了
已来不及回头回头已是空是你我太忙
当逃亡变习惯我只想痛哭一场喔
你总是爱说时间不够

He's done with.

2009-09-15T18:06:00.005+08:00

It's all over.

I've got no right.

Life's like this... I've got nothing to say, nothing left.

Goodbye, my love.

"Out of sudden I feel like pouring everything that's in my heart. But I also want to keep it to myself. I can't find anyone to talk my heart out. I don't know what to do. really don't know. Keep to myself? And just make myself gong gong in the night? I really wish he were there. Nah, I'm not qualified to. Even my sorry is valueless. Useless. Hah. Now I see, I'm actually that lousy, that bad. Now you guys know, so why do you still want to befriend with me? Stop being a friend to me. I belong to those who don't deserve anything from anyone. Don't pity me. Bu Zhi De okay. How I wish I was dead, and donate my organs to people who deserve to enjoy and live more? Dammit, 9pm only I'm blah-ing rubbish? LOL? Laugh all you want. I want to do anything before I make this decision. Thanks if you care. But sorry, you know I don't deserve it. Take care till then. Nevertheless, I love him the most, yes you, if you're reading this. I know you'll say '' You're not qualified to love me.". No motivation to live on. No reason to live on. Now I'm living for nothing. Sit back and relax like an idiot. Wasting my life away like burning paper turning into ashes. And Blah Blah Blah. Too much, just too much. You wouldn't know what I've been through, although I know you've been through alot.

Bye."

You're still the one.

2009-09-15T05:56:00.007+08:00

Thanks baby, I like it alot. (: Muacks. Love you.

Chao Tah dumpling anyone?

Okay, its really time for me to update.

Today no programme. Tsk.

Went for L4D with Eugene instead. Caicai was there too.

After L4D went home. Now, I'm obsessed with L4D.

Met my beloved scandal Lynn & Nut on Sun for yukiyaki!

Glutton right LOL! But can't finish everything. -.- I da pao-ed the sushis in a plastic bag and throw it away secretly LOL! Met Steph & Co. in the night went Little Heaven. (: Got home at about 8 in the morning. Well I overslept in the bus. My first time man.

My dearest JLJJ, I'm sorry that I've neglected you.

No matter what, I love you the most. It's rather sad to hear what you've said to me.

It's heartbreaking, but still I love you most.

I do hope I can be there for you.

Gotta sleep now. Have to work later.

rotting away

2009-09-06T03:30:00.003+08:00

Oh well, I can't get into sleep. Or rather I was waiting for a call important to me.
Went home straight after working last night. Boring. I'll be reporting to work in 4 hours time.
After working meeting Skye jie later in the evening.. I don't know why am I still hesitating to go or not to.
Sometimes I just feel really tired.

I hope someone will understand me.

(Could you be the one then?)

ily dear<3

2009-09-05T04:14:00.003+08:00

Last night had a heartily girls talk with Steph and Fel at Little Heaven (:

Signed a facial promotion for $188. I am broke ): Gah I want a LV bag lah!

Today went home straight after work. Audit awhile with dear, audit now kinda boring already.

Played for three years already now then sian.. power. I think we'd grown up already.

I have to plan for my studies next year. Kinda stress sia, also don't know I stress for what.

Appeal for Nursing course in ITE or apply private school for O? Got to save for studies and LV bag. Don't care I die die want to buy a LV bag! Buying labels with money you earned is totally a different feeling.

Later working at 5pm. God bless me, don't be late.

Going to meet Skye jie on sun. God bless me more on sunday okay? *LOL*

I'm so so so so HAPPY!

2009-09-02T21:06:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHA

I'm over the moon tonight.

Filled with joy.

Exhilarated. (:

ily.

Loved!

2009-08-23T17:00:00.000+08:00

Lets meet up again and gossip sis! :)

22 Weeks

2009-08-19T02:28:00.007+08:00

FUCKED UP.
TO: YS

I've tried my best. Thanks anyway!
I've picked up my missing pieces again.
Thanks for making me realise something.
( You Know Who You Are )

Too many things happened in just a few months. Its getting tired when no matter what I do, the outcome is gonna be the same. I should have never try to get into it. But thanks anyway, enjoyed though.

TSK. Okay, I'm being playful again. LOL.

I'm gonna concentrate on my work and my savings! Dam my desire! My spending had exceeded.
Shall not blah much.

OH YAAA! I wanna try something. Just something. Something I've never try before. Just once please! Stephy -POKE you know what I want right? LOL hint hint *Shakesss Head* =X

And Anyone Dragonica? :x

Outdated Pictures.

Daddy bought this and brought it to me at my workplace. (:
Playing with dry ice.
this is love.

Dunkin!

Coffee club.

Jasper Leong, I'm sorry dear.
But still, I can't forget you.
Come back soon. I'll die without you.

22 Weeks

20 Weeks 1 Day

2009-08-06T02:10:00.005+08:00

It'll never be the same ever again.

Was late to greet myself a Happy 1 year and 2 months, on the 5th.

How many more happy anniversary greeting to be greet to myself? -sighs-

I still believe~ Someday you and me~We'll find ourselves inlove again~

I miss your love.

Alright back to topic LOL. Just now, I lodged a complain to the police.
Dam that man. Harass me for the dam 4th times despite the warnings and chances I gave him.
Dam unlucky, stayed in the same block as well. He's a nut. Nothing serious actually but was pissed. I don't even dare to fight him. Cos he has a loose screw in his brain. Who knows what else can he do.

So darn boring, can only go out when bro book-out from camp. Hope to meet up with Stanley on friday after he book-out. Oh and Rodney, Jian Jie if ya both is free lets meet up too! Lets go for movie! Past two days, ate supper together with Stanley :B oh man, didn't I want to slim down?
Cannot resist food. Darn me.

My dear Ong Lai (Stanley), really hope that you can get over all this. I don't know I should be happy or upset. My first time seeing you so obsessed with a girl, with an heart-breaking outcome. I hope you'll stand strong no matter what (:

And I'm still obsessed with Jasper Leong. I am so so so obsessed with you.
Even if there's only one spark of hope, I will cling to that spark. Hoping that it'll bring me to the ending we've dream of. But still I can't help to feel alone. What makes me believe, and make me really wanted to carry on? I guess it's the love that we shared that is giving me strength to carry on with my life now. Though there's some difficulties, I'll still try my best to keep this love alive. I'm so afraid to lose this love someday ahead. I really do. And I'm afraid you'll forget me.

Who'll understand the fear that I feared?

20 Weeks 1 Day

19 Weeks 1 Days.

2009-07-30T03:33:00.006+08:00

I Miss Dearest Alot.

Too much of work makes me feel so alone and lost touch of communication with gfs. ):

Oh Jasper dearest, how are you doing tonight? Did you know the night sky is crying tonight?

I still love you so.

One day just passed so easily. But to think of 2 years, it makes me feel time is going way too slow.

19 Weeks 1 Days.

18 Weeks 3 Days.

2009-07-25T20:48:00.004+08:00

Uploaded the picture taken on Yi Zhen's wedding dinner (:

Top: Hui Shan, Yi Zhen, Cui Wen. Bottom: Xiu Juan & Me.

Juan Leen Zhen

Celine, Juan, Me & Zhen

The "table" photo.

I SWEAR I'M GONNA GO FOR A STRONG DIET TO SLIM DOWN. D:

I'm getting fatter and fatter. omfgzxzxzx I look like a Ba Zhang. -.-!

Dearest, I am waiting. Even if I have to waste 2 years of my youth.

I'm waiting for you to show me what you've promised.

Muacks;ily

18 Weeks 3 Days.

18 Weeks 2 Days

2009-07-24T17:00:00.005+08:00

i miss my love ):

gahhh. Leen's working now and was late for 6 minutes.

This month I took 2 off-days. Hahaha! Chiong only.

Ades aka Thomas, get well eh botak! =X

Recently, got the trend of shaving botak for guys urh? That day went to trim my hair, hearing a school boy wanted to shave ball-head. And Now my brother also shave botak. And even my dearest Ah Gu Uncle also botak head! Shall upload some picture later in the night when I get home!

-Solidify-<3

18 Weeks 2 Days

17 Weeks, 2 Days

2009-07-16T03:36:00.005+08:00

aloha :x

ps~ boh time blog leh.

last erm.. Saturday Rodney and Jian Jie came over to look for me! Thanks lah Bro! We actually wanted to have supper near-by my house so we took bus 195 over to my area. Then I realised there's no more shop open-ed at that time already. So we went Lau Pa Sat instead. Eat the Zhu Chao and Satay. Glutton please. So much of food, but still 3 of us manage to finish everything!
After that they send me home and slacked under my block! Chit Chat! Went over to the vending machine for drinks, then I chua sai. Something came out from the back of that machine and mew-ed to me! And yes its a very cute little kitten! I went up and get some food soaked in luke-warm water and brought a bottle of fresh-water with me for that little kitty. Its was real hungry.

Didn't sleep as by the time I went up, it was already close to 6am. And I went off to work at 7.30am. After work, went out and meet Mao♥~ Woots right? I strong ok. Boh sleep enough still can pa pa chao(Any how run)!

Soon, it'll be 20th!

Meow!

Food o_o

Tmd bro, I listen to you swee boh? But I say 1st, one more time this thing happen. I give her cui. 10 years already. Still want to qi gek me. Cb. Ah Lian? Very Eh Sai? Lai loh. Try me. I Huan Loh her 2 brother where one. CB. Knn, I never wear shirt means I buey Zai? Want say I hum ji? Eh at least use 0.01% of your freaking brain PLEASE. I got ji, I no need lai ang! Wanna talk about GUTS? You're not even anywhere near me. Tell you lah, to me you're just a single hair. Knn, pls loh, you no guts until bwg. Can't even own up for your own mistakes <-- Is this what you called ''GUTS''? Fight involved and get caught/ppl come, you deny you nv do anything, you just stand there see, all I fight one. <-- Is this what you called ''ZAI''? 2 words, LAN JIAO! PISSED OFF!

As If I care, you and your bro or you what so ever where one. My advise lah -> Don't xia suay. Call ppl come~ I one person stand there fight you all. LAI LOH! Win Lose I also don't care. 7 words for you lah, AI LI WU JI! KAN KAN LAI!. Limbu wu ji kia zai zai! Lai qi kua mai! (Although I know, both u and me boh ji!)

Pan Ying Wen simi lai eh! Limbu say "Ji Tiao Mo!'' Not happy? So PS. I SIBEI HAPPY!

♥

17 Weeks, 2 Days

16 Weeks 2 Days

2009-07-09T02:22:00.004+08:00

I'm here to share the joy of my beloved sis Zhen's love story (:

Yi Zhen & Jason

I guess it is right that, 女人穿上婚纱的那一天是她一生最美丽的一天。而她最美丽的一生就交给了她心爱的人。

所以，男人们要好好爱护你的老婆啦！

Zhen~ 你为爱情长跑付出的努力终于开花结果了！好幸福哦！

Can't wait till 20th :x, Zhen's wedding dinner! I want to wear wedding gown also :O LOL!

I miss dear.
♥
16 Weeks 2 Days

15 Weeks 4 Days

2009-07-05T17:17:00.006+08:00

I cut my thumb accidentally today by a scissors. After appr. 5 mins of stopping the bleed by using tissue paper it still bleeds. -.- Now its okay le. My Poor Thumb ):

YJ ;D

♥

Back from work! And I'm sleepyyyyy *Oinks*

15 Weeks 4 Days

15 Weeks 3 Days

2009-07-04T00:40:00.004+08:00

I look old and haggard.
♥

Sis, ♥

Milk Tea is my ♥

Met up with sis on tues.

Went for dinner and desserts at Ah Chew's.

After that home sweet home.

Leen's tired today. Shall not rant much.

Nights!

15 Weeks 3 Days

In memory of Michael Jackson

2009-06-29T05:07:00.004+08:00

In memory of Michael Jackson, The King of Pop.

Personally, I was shocked when I learn about his death.
I honestly loves the way he dance. And most of all, I love the song You Are Not Alone from the album of HIStory.

R.I.P

I uploaded this very song that I love since a lot of years back. Do Enjoy!

You Are Not Alone By Michael Jackson

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone
Ooh'

Whisper three words and
I'll come runnin'
Fly
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there
You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone (You are not alone)
For I am here with you (I am here with you)
Though you're far away (Though you're far away)
I am here to stay (And you with me)
For you are not alone (You're always, in my heart')
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone...

Not alone
You are not alone, you are not alone...
You just reach for me girl
In the morning in the evening
Not alone, not alone
And you with me, not alone

14 Weeks 5 Days.

2009-06-29T04:25:00.003+08:00

Lets catch up soon sis!

Weee~ I changed my blogskins. LOL, Steph tempted me to change :x LOL!
I hope I can meet up with Juan on Tues ): Can I take a off or work Morning Shift?
LAUGHS. If I'm able to get off on the 30th, then I'm well prepare to work all the way to 20th of July!

It's raining outside.

The sound of the rain brings me feelings of despair.
Felt so alone.

Dearest are you missing me as well?

♥

14 Weeks 5 Days.

14 Weeks 4 Days

2009-06-28T04:07:00.004+08:00

I'll be waiting for you♥ I love you. (:

I guess I shall not take off! Zhen's wedding is coming real soon. And I'm wondering when can I get marry. LOL. *Dear, when you want a baby huh? :x* LOL! I didn't mean anything else okay! :x

Today, I saw a mad women at the bus stop.

Right infront of my shop, she scolded then other women like this:

Mad Women: You bitch! You think you very pretty ah!!!? Go and look in the mirror and see lah!

You ugly bitch!! Don't say me ugly, cause you're also ugly! Bitch!

Women: *ignores* and Kept Quiet.

Mad Women: You mother also bitch! Positute! Talk to you boyfriend about me?! You also ugly what! BITCH!! Har you and your mother the same! Ugly bitch!! Positute!

Women: Kept Quiet and took her phone out.

Mad Women: You think you got phone I don't have? *Take out her phone frm pocket* SEE! I also got phone!! You Bitch! *Stretching out her hand and phone in palm infront of the women's face* Call police ah? Call lah! Complain lah! Later I stuff my phone in your mouth!! Bitch Positute! Your mother positute!

Women: *Keeps her phone in her bag*

Mad Women: *PUI* Spits at the women's head. Your mother positute. Bitch! So ugly! You're a ugly bitch *Walk off*

Women: *Turns her head around and stare*

Mad Women: Walk off and continued her blahh-ing of ugly bitch and positute.

Moments later, mad women pacing from one end to the other. Still blahhh-ing abt ugly bitch positute.

I was stunt at first man. I was inside the shop topping up the cigarette when I heard the Mad women scolding loudly. I pity the women who got scolded over nothing. She was just chatting with her guy friend in the bus stop. And this Mad women assume that she had gossiped about her. I almost laughed at the moment when she spits at the poor lady. Damn, I'm a bad ass. I couldn't do anything back then. There's so many people at the bus-stop, but none helped her. I guess, better not to offend someone with a screw loosen in the head. And the Mad Women look really really mad. She has long grey hair, in a pony tail, sleeve-less top that has huge cutting at the armpit area exposing her bra openly and she looks like she hasn't bath for a good few months. Dirty hair, dirty shirt, dirty pants, dirty slippers and her dirty bra. -.-

Thank goodness, the one that she scold wasn't me. If it was me, I would have scold her back, and if she spits at me I'll spit double back at her. Then I'll use bottels of Dettol to disinfect myself. Who knows if she have brush her teeth anot. Digusting! And the way she scolds is really very very insulting. I mean if you want to scold somebody just scold that person but why must her scold that lady's mother? And calling her a positude.. That's a awful word to use. The Salute to that women who got scolded, she can really tolerate someone like this. Maybe I should learn that from her.

Days has passed, and you'll never realise it was really fast.
Cherish and treasure your love ones before it is too late.
I had never cherish and treasure my family and my dearest much in the past.
Now I'm trying to cherish and treasure everyone more in my life.
The things that I've learn when I was with dearest is never little.
Trust me, I'll be waiting for you at all cost.

Leen's reporting to work earlier each day! Keep the good work up okay?! ^___^

And I miss dearest like crazy. ): ♥

14 Weeks 4 Days

14 weeks 1 days

2009-06-25T06:10:00.007+08:00

I am and always, waiting.♥

Feel so tired.. vexed. gahhhhhhh

Something's missing in my life. So many things are missing..

...SIGH...

A chat with Jian Jie, triggle something in me.

JJ: Hey Leen how're you doing?

Me: Okay Okay loh.

JJ: Now then replyyyyyy me.

Me: Ps I working mah. Now dismiss alrdy

JJ: Never mind la, tmr then text you. Going to accompany my gf. She's at hospital

Me: Huh? Why at hospital?

JJ: She got high fever loh. She fainted while at work. Then I faster send her to hospital. Scare me sia.

Me: Then now how already? Why will faint?

JJ: She now okay le. Cause she never have enough rest due to her work.

Me: Whats her temp?

JJ: Her temp 43. something lei. Today then drop temp only. Then I take off go accompany her.

Me: Means now you're at the Hospital??

JJ: Ya I'm accompanying her in the hospital now.

Me: Huh?! So late already. At which hospital? (Time is 11.38pm)

JJ: SGH loh. No need to worry about me lah.

Me: Then you are going to stay there the whole night in the ward? What about your mum?

JJ: I told my mum le. She also told me to accompany her. Gf's mum put her in the private ward so other ppl is there, so I can sleep beside her bed.

Me: Wah, take care of her loh. Wish her recover soon.

JJ: Np. Can take care of my gf is a happy thing. Next time I will take care of you all also when you all fall sick (You all = Me, Juan, Zhen and others)

Me: LOL. But I rather die then to get sick.

JJ: Hey don't say die leh. You die, your BF suffer more then you leh.

Me: I die already he can find someone better mah....

JJ: Don't think this way lah.

Me: Really mar. I so lousy, outside still got so many better girls mar...

JJ: Don't like that think la. Ah Leen ah, Don't think that way okay?

Me: Ok Ok. Don't think already lah.

I'm always talking things that'll hurt my bf. ~___~
Sorry, dear again. D:

I love you ♥

14 Weeks 1 Day

I'll be waiting for you.

2009-06-17T02:55:00.005+08:00

I'll be waiting for you.

Why is it so hard for the time to pass in the wee hours of everyday?

Whenever it reaches this time of everyday, my heart aches. Then a feeling of missing someone so miserable, so unbearable. So despair. Sometimes I can't help but staring at the things that brings back so many memories, the warmness of the tears reminding me you're the one I'm missing so much. There's nothing I can do other then missing you, reminiscence everything that you do. When there's "Withheld" call, I thought it was you for a sec.. I've almost forgotten.

I kept imagine you're here.

For once I thought I went crazy. But nope I'm not, I'm just missing you too much.

And I'm crazy over you.

♥

13 Weeks.

2009-06-12T03:06:00.002+08:00

Aloha! :x

I've changed my job already. No more selling pillows. Working in a Bus-Stop Kiosk as a cashier hahaha! No more scoldings by aunties over nothing already~ Weeee~

And My dearest Yi Zhen is getting marry next month! Everyone's getting marry eh. Next week is my cousin who is younger then me getting marry and next month is Yi Zhen's. Now I want to get marry also lah! Hahaha! Wait for me leh I don't want to be the last one to get marry! Juan, when's your turn huh? :X arbo We both get married at the same time lah! Then no people will be the last lah! LOL see Zhen getting marry I also happy like siao.

*Bao Bei Lao Gong, I miss you alot. I love you alot. (:

Don't forget the things you've said ya. Muacks ♥*

12 Weeks 2 Days

waiting <3

2009-06-06T02:13:00.004+08:00

Will be waiting for you my dearest.

You know I can't turn my heart away from you.

So baby I will wait for you.

Living in the history to feel the future.

"Deng wo, wo qu ni."

"Wo deng ni, wo ai ni"

"I love you, muacks."

"I love you too, muacks."

Will always remember, for once I've tasted the sweetness in all these bitterness.

Looking back from yesterday, all the moments we've created still means so much to me.

A smile from your face, a smile from my face created the days we've been through.

A drop of tear from your eye, a drop of tear from my eye make our river of love go alive.

When your hand reached out for my hand, we'll walk through all difficulties.

When your heart reached out to my heart, we know for sure we're meant for each other.

Dearest, I'll never forget you.

11 Weeks 5 Days.

Happy 1 Year Anni.

2009-06-05T04:38:00.006+08:00

Happy 1 year anniversary dearest.♥

You've forgotten about me.
Have Been Waiting since then...

Am I just nothing to you? Guess, I'm not so important after all..

Why does the emptiness in the night brings a feeling of despair?

speechless.

2009-06-05T00:22:00.003+08:00

When can I smile in reality instead of faking the smiles each day?

I wonder, where do I stand in the place of your heart.

Finally get to off already. Hahas! Working in Raffles City is way too much slacking then Center Point and Takashimaya! Maybe because the Card Day just ended hmm but still it was way too slack. Well I like it though =x LOL

Saturday working in Center Point ~__~ sure to get scolding from that Dolly auntie super bias kns. She'll go "Think what I pay her $50 per day just to let her stand there only? Like that I might as well stand there myself!" eh fuck you understand. It doesn't matter if I serve or don't serve customers okay. CAUSE no matter I serve or don't you will still say that same stupid thing over and over again to so many people! FUCK YOU!

What do you expect when the customers is actually Indulgence Jenny's? Ask me to serve its just like asking me to cut her sales directly infront of her. Dam you old hag! _l_ Don't ASK me to find trouble okay. You hate Indulgence promoter thats YOUR Fucking Problem. Don't make your problem my problem. Get it? Old Maid. Lucky enough not all Aunties Are Like YOU. They're much more nicer, better and understanding then YOU!

Aunty Wee is that mirror in the storeroom yours? =X
Storeroom

Cuts.

And Cuts...

And Cuts again..

My New Found Love!

sigh.

2009-06-03T00:59:00.004+08:00

说不出的伤心，才是真正的伤心。

说不出爱你的原因，是因为我真的爱你。

爱一个人不需要原因。伤害一个人必有原因。

要爱一个人要先学会去爱自己。

说不出口的感受，我自己明白。

不过我希望你能比他人还明白我的感受。

你的心还在吗？

如果心以不在，我还是希望你能辛福快乐。

Take it as I'm uttering rubbish.

You won't know what I am feeling now.

But I still love you like before.

My heart is almost dead.

Feel so lost and empty without you.

JLJJ♥

11 Weeks 1 Day

workingggg

2009-06-01T01:14:00.004+08:00

Out of sudden I miss the 1st song playing in my music player.. I used to listen to it for the past few months and tears will filled my eyes whenever I think of you. I hope you still do love me like before, and miss me like before.

Nevertheless, I'm waiting for you. JLJJ♥

Today's my last day working in Taka LOL. Hate die those Balmain promoters. Look what they do. Use their box to block the view of my products. Kns loh. Still want to cut my sales. Block passage way somemore. NB, got one promoter wear spec de nbcb de, call Alvin behaves and talks like a Gay. Niang Niang Chiang can. Promote his products to my customers, customers don't want his pillows he faster take Co`zy's pillow and promote. Don't know any how tell customer that my pillow can't be washed if not will have a foul smell. NB. Still got the guts to ask me loudly infront of my customers "Are your pillows washable???" I replied him "WHAT DO YOU THINK??!!" End up lucky enough the customer bought my pillow. __ him, if my customer return the pillow I'm gonna fuck him upside-down. CB Ah Gua see liao also dulan. Then I so Pissed lah nb. Elsie still say, yes fierce abit more fierce abit more. LMAO.

CB Balmain, tell you all don't ever go buy their pillows, made in China still lie to customer said its made in Paris wtf. Please loh, their "Extra Firm Pillow 1700gms" is even softer and lighter then my "Firm 1200gm" If really made in Paris, the price will only be $49 after discount for all Firm and Soft pillows meh? Somemore, if you ever tried to rub the pillow in a circle motion for ten times you can see the Fiber come out. Lousy quality loh.

I'm promoting Snowdown's pillow btw.

Today, I meet a super cute young Japanese girl. She is super duper CUTE!!

Met Juan Ytd though. ♥

See Block my Product NB __

Juan made for me de! Mango Orange Freeze with Pearls.
Oops! =X
The Cute Little Japanese Girl! Showing me her bag.

When She Saw Elsie =X LOL

10 Weeks 6 Days

2009-05-30T00:28:00.002+08:00

I just totally don't understand why such people like Pan Ying Wen exist.
Being such a loser? Jealous that I can still keep in contact with more sec sch friends or what?
Needa call Joker and tell him stuffs about me? Oh dam, Look into the mirror at yourself before trying to badmouth me. And of course I am very sure, humans have eyes and ears. And they of course have a heart to judge for themselves.

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Pan Ying Wen, the Slut.

10 Weeks.

2009-05-26T01:45:00.003+08:00

Replies to Tags

25 May 09, 10:02 AM
Passerby: i thought u n ying wen was very close in sec school?
Leen: Close physically. Well she's not worth as a friend. Can say I was BLIND back then Lmao. Who are You By The Way?

25 May 09, 09:14 AM
ades: happy belated birthday
Leen: Thanks Ades! ;D

22 May 09, 04:07 PM
-Ting: Darling..what happened? i tried calling ur phone.But its no longer available.. ): we're gonna lost contact just like that ar? DDD: ..-emo- ..pls take loads of care.. misses u happy belated bday♥
Leen: Darling!♥ Don't worry! I'm fineeee, my phone is working already! Hugs!♥

22 May 09, 12:03 AM
Yizhen: i wan to cry le la.... T.T do i really look like 11 yrs old? o.O
Leen: LOL! Nope you don't look like 11 years old! Don't cry♥ TC Hugs!

21 May 09, 07:21 PM
Qing: happy birthday to you , happy birthday to you , happy birthday to leen ~ happy birthday to you ~~~~~
Leen: Thanks Qing! So sweet of you! Muacks =x ♥

Added 2 new songs in my player :) Big Bang - Lie and Epik High - One. Enjoy people :x Although audit have lah lol!

Had been thinking lots of things. Please don't let it happen. I'm afraid my heart might just died like that.

You know, I love you. I really Do. JLJJ, you're the only one. ildy ♥

10 Weeks

20 years of life..

2009-05-21T15:05:00.012+08:00

Heya peepos! ;)

Can't update much due do my works. I'm planning to go back to school next year :D Well I hadn't forgotten what I had promised my dearest.. Oh well I did enjoy my 20th Birthday :D but it could be better if dearest is able to celebrate with me... Nevertheless, thanks my babes! Thank you both so much! Weather is so bad this few days.. Rain and Shine D:!

Raining~

Shining~
Raining.. And Raining again.

Yay, I'm one year older ~_~

Thanks babes for my birthday! :D ♥

When I arrived at Juan's mom's house~

Happy Bday to you, Happy Bday to you...

She is real tired..

My Miss White!

Juan's Mom ;) ♥

Hahaha.. Sheng taking picture.

I WISH, I WISH.. I WISH YOU WERE HERE WITH ME.

Cut Cut..

Their know I love chocolate so do you! :p

Removing the wax from the candle..

He said " Mdm ZHU!"

One of my lame pose. :x

The combination of my two lame pose :x

Hor Hor! Don't make me Jealous okay!

Don't care, I kaypo in :xxx

Birthday card! Me to You, Tatty Bear ♥

I'm still wearing the necklace till now. ♥

Open present, Open!!

Huh? Wah this one is what I wanted long ago!

Psssst~~ Spray Spray! :x

Leen: Why nothing come out one? Juan: -.- new one mar -.-

*Maybe I should get this too hmmm..*

Perfume Karen Mok by Karen Mok.

Aiya, wait 1st. Let me finish the cake!

Tell you I got no other pose already :p

I Know. I look fat.

Faster Faster hungry leh!

Food finally! Ka Do Jian, My ♥♥

Suay? Raining loh.

Going to 3am alrdy..

Juan♥

Zhen♥

♥

*If you miss me, you could have sent me a letter.. But there's none. Why? Did you know I'm so broken-hearted?*

*I really do love you. And I do miss you.♥*

-9 Weeks, 1 Day-

2009-05-12T03:28:00.004+08:00

Replies to Tags:

11 May 09, 12:21 AM
Jamie(:: i love die you ♥
Leen: ILDY TOO! (: ♥

10 May 09, 10:47 PM
zairong: hahas =) happy mother day hahas =) have fun with ur family hahas =) take care with loves
Leen: You too hope you've enjoyed Mother's day :D Take Care too!!

10 May 09, 01:32 PM
yz: cherish everything u hav ok? leen... u can de... jyjy!!! new life! new Frens! new story!!! XD
Leen: I'll learn to cherish everything more now^^~ I don't want new story :x as in my Love Story :x hahahs Yes! Say Yes, my new life♥

10 May 09, 09:54 AM
rara`: leen ~ ♥ ~ ^^ ur latest post is amazing. (: *hugs.
Leen: Rara ~ ♥ :D Ty for taking ur time to read~ *hugs* :D ♥

10 May 09, 02:08 AM
Aniki: lalala leen♥ jy working.
Leen: ANIKI! :D ♥ I will JY JY JY DE!!

5 May 09, 08:23 PM
ZU: wah food :o
Leen: =X Don't drool! :X FOOD IS ♥

Ytd 1st day of work :D, but kinda suay though. Early Morning Heavy Rain and The Bus Captain didn't stop at the destination when I pressed the Bell )): And Was Late and drenched. -.- Done the playlist in my blog.. stupid imeem plays song only 30sec.. Those song I upload de leh! D: Now re-upload again make new music player.. Mixture of English, Mandarin and Korean songs :DD ♥ Tomorrow got time I'll upload some picture too :DD

I'm missing you badly. I love you dear. JLJJ♥

7 Weeks 6 Days

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY

2009-05-09T04:27:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday Daddy (:

Although this wishing posted here is late. Haha. I think this gonna be a long post. I've got lots to say...

I'm sorry dad, I didn't fulfill my job as a good daughter. I had been thinking alot ever since my dear sis's dad passed away.. I somehow feel this bitterness within myself. I've been thinking that although my daddy is rough, although he bashed me up when I was much younger and canned me when I was little. All this is his way of teaching, he grow up in a hash environment thus all this canning, bashing and vulgar scoldings occur in my life. I shouldn't blame him at all. Cause, I'm the one who is asking for it. Dad had once told me, even if you can't afford something you must not steal it. And, I stole something before. See, I'm asking for canning right. And I know that you feel bad, you feel that you're useless because I'm behaving like a child whom got no parents to teach. But daddy, please do believe in me. Have faith in me. Although I know you had given up on me 80% long ago. I can only blame myself for all my doings. But I'm not regretful.
Cause I do learn something from all of my mistakes.

Thief - I don't steal now, I've stopped it since I was in Secondary School (Sec 3).

Fights - I don't look for fight now, although sometimes I say I would fight but thats all my
bullshits. But of course If someone were to beat me up, I won't just let that person beat right?( Cause I remember this clearly: If you were to fight with someone, keep on fighting even if you'll lose, keep on fighting even if you'll die.)

Cigarette - I've started to smoke when I was in Primary 3 going to Pri 4, that was like 10 years old. So I had been smoking for about 10 years. I'd promised my dad, my dear, my sis and friends I will try to quit. But I know this will take a long long time.

Vulgarities - I've been using hokkien vulgarities since K1 K2. (Pardon me people.. I'll tell you why later on.) I've try my very best to cut down the amount of vulgarities used. I guess some of you had realise it? Laughs.

Anger - I have a very very very bad anger. I still can't fully control it... After so much councling I'm still like can't control it very well. Well, But I think I do manage to cool myself sometimes well its sometimes. -.-

Laziness - I KNOW I AM VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY L-A-Z-Y! BUT!!! I've try not to be lazy from that day I learn that losing someone dear to you is so painful.

My dad teaching might not seems to be so nice. But that his way of teaching me to be a better person in life. He grow up in a poor family. My parents divorced when I was 9. He used to can me even its minor mistakes. When I turned 6, I stopped tearing from beatings. Cause I know that I'm asking for it. After my parents divorced, I shut down all my feelings. I don't feel anything. Till I was in middle of my Primary 4 life, when someone named Pan Ying Wen come in to my life. She's the one re-opened my feelings. 1st feeling I opened up was Anger. She provoked me, bullied me till I can't take it anymore. (Note: I got no friends when I was young. Even in K1 K2 all the way to Primary 4.) And soon we become friends. And even though she treat me like a idiot. Cause I wanted a real friend. But soon when I reached secondary school I've met new friends and some of them are my good friends till now. (: And I decided to cut all my relationship with Pan Ying Wen, who always trying to ruin my life in anyway.

All these while, my daddy is also my mummy. One person feeding 2 children by working odd jobs, if there's work there's income. ( That up to this day.) All the hardship in life that I've been through when I was young. My dad is there even though is the hardest for him. (*This happened when I was 9yrs old to 10 yrs old) *He was jobless when they divorced. No money for himself, no money to feed us. Luckily enough for us to survived through this stage of life. I remembered, we 3 shared a plate of rice. We walked from Commonwealth to Tiong Baruh to visit my grandma.
And my grandma and some friends of my dad some relative is the life saver at this stage.
(All these had become apart of my sweet memories.) Hahas. Then after 1 year, he found a job. But he got no time to cook, do laundry and look after us. So he send us to my big aunt's care. Life there wasn't good. But I'm very thankful for that seriously. When we was under my aunt's care. We were treat differently from my other cousin who is also staying over there. Whats the different? lols, We( Me and My Brother) had all our meals outside the house. Meaning we just put some newspaper on the floor at the common corridor and have our meals. We can't have afternoon naps like my cousin. We can't watch tv as and when we like. We can only do something if my aunt give her permittion. My brother often got bullied by the other 2 cousins. Beaten Up, Scoldings, Pushing, Making Fun Of and lots to come. But I told my brother to keep everything to ourselves. My dad, who is working already by then often visits us when he finish his work in the evening. We often meet up at the place he hangs out just one road away. The short walking distance wasn't pleasant too. Right under my aunts block, there's this group of malays age 7 - 13
who is always there to bully us whenever they saw us. There's 6 of them and sometimes 10 of them there. When they saw us, they surround us and start to talk in malay with english and started to bash us up like mashed-potatoes. For the very 1st time I fought with someone, for the very first time I protected someone(My Brother), for the very 1st time I know this world is unfair, for the 1st time I felt that no one is there to help. But I've told my brother to keep everything to ourselves again. I know you'll ask why don't tell your dad? Hahas Because I don't wanna trouble him. I know He is suffering too, most importantly I don't want him to get worried.. Now you know why I hate malays so much. They beat us like nobody business. I fought with them but I chose to run away in the end just darn too much of them there. And once they even threw stones and bricks at us. Me and my brother had bruise all over our bodies. When my dad ask, I'll speak up "I fight with didi". Meeting my dad was the most wonderful thing back then. Even though he got not enough money to survive, he'll buy us treats like ice-creams, sweets and potato chips and chocolates although when both my parents were tgt he'll always forbid us to eat that lols. Meeting him is only a 1hr time after that we got to go back to our aunts place. Going back was hell too. Malays waiting there to beat us up, aunt gonna scold us for meeting up with my dad for "SO LONG". Sometimes inmiddle of the night, I woke up with my nose bleeding and sometimes just crying silently. Life like that..I just want to end it. LOL! And I rmb me and my brother closes friend back then was a Big Black Stray Dog! Name Ah Girl! When we was suffering she's there to cheer us up, and guess what~ She has given birth to 10 puppies back then! 10 solid black puppies!! Haha! Rmb I said we eat meals outside with newspaper on the ground? We always eat half of the portion we and we warped the leftovers with the newpaper and bring it to Ah Girl, and when the puppies is old enough they join in the meals too! But soon all the puppies gone one by one... Our best friend is gone one by one till the only one left is Ah girl herself lols. When I turn 10, things still continues till one day, we had our dinner outside and leave the plates at the gate as we are going to meet my dad at the usual place, my cousin kicked the plates some leftovers was tipped on the floor. My aunt's husband shouted at us "BOTH OF YOU IDIOTS GET LOST NOW GET LOSTTTT!" in chinese. (Ni men liang ge bai chi gei wo kun xian zai ma shang kun kai!) I was angry, I hold my brother's hand and run to find my dad. (No more Malays waiting to beat us up as the older malays there know my dad's friend's son. He saw those malay beat us up. And he told them who my dad was. And they stopped it.) The 1st thing we saw our dad we burst out to tears, and told my dad every single thing. My dad was dam pissed off, he held our little hands tight and said "Sorry, I've let you both suffered." And he bring us back to my aunt place, he scolded my aunt, beat up her husband. And I heard my dad saying "I've given you money to take care of my child. They're my child! Not an outsider's and they're not beggars!" ( I took out the vulgarities) From that day onwards we were under our dad's care back to my old sweet home.

I learnt vulgarities upon hearing adults using it. And I know its meaning after hearing it. Cause everyday in my life, I was surrounded by old mafias LOL I don't wanna call them as gangsters cause they are way too different from gangster you see today.

Now, we've talked and bonded back our relationship with my aunt (:

Ah Girl the black stray dog, has passed away when I was 11 yrs old. R.I.P

PS: When my parents divorced, I will answer "My mum is dead" when ever there is a question asked about my family or mother. Now, My mum is still with us and we've been in good terms already. (:

Been through all this, I should be waking up and do my best in life now right? ;)
Someone told me, its not too late to change over a new leaf.

And now I've found someone I love and someone I want to treasure so much.

It is time, for me to grow up now.

Fruitti Toufu.

Hong Kong style steam fish.
Mango Chicken.
I forgot what's the name of this...

Someone whom I love whom I want to treasure: Daddy, Grandma, Mommy, Jasper Leong, Brother, Sister Lee Xiu Juan and all of my beloved friends.

i love you. -7 weeks, 3 days.

Swensen<3

2009-05-07T03:35:00.004+08:00

Aloha! ^.^

Updating again. Lols.
Today went to North Point to eat dinner with Skye Jie, hella long since I last meet her. ;D
Had dinner at Swensen... lol forgot to take picture! Jie had the Mushroom & Salmon Pasta in cream sauce, I had Fish & Chip and the Shrimp Dipper + Fried Mushroom!! And Chocolate Fondue!!!! Oh ya I realise that recently I like to take disgusting pictures leh... lol I guess I should really go and buy a decent camera.

Oh ya and I think 2 days ago there's this cat got stuck in between my living room's window. Its about 3am ++ when my brother actually wakes me up. Cause He is sleeping inside the room while I sleep in the living room that day cause Koko was sleeping there so I wanted to sleep beside him. And you can say that both Koko and me are pigs. Why? Cause we don't even know when the cat got stuck there.. My brother says he heard something scratching at the window and thus he woke up to check. And he wake me up and said "Ling, you look at the window. *Points*" and I turn my head look at the window. Wth! Really chua sai lah! Light's off some more please! Scare Die Me -.- Then I said, who so heartless torture a cat like this.. Cause it seems impossible for it to be stuck there. I got flared up and my brother too. We decided to go look for that idiot who do this to the cat. We were like "WTF, How can someone squeeze the cat like this? Our window is those Old Fashion type at the top part, those are real glasses and the edge is sharp enough to cut you skin. So my brother went up and down to check if there's anyone. But he can't find any. So we unstuck the cat carefully. And it doesn't want to go away.. My Koko is in there prepare to fight already. So no choice, I can't keep a cat at home and worst that cat is not vaccinated at all means it could bring lots of virus to Koko. So I carried it and leave it to the other staircase that is about 6 to 8 doors away. When we walk back, guess what.. THAT CAT JUMPS UP TO OTHER'S WINDOW. Which mean that this cat jump and squeeze and got stuck at my window itself. God Bless This Cat. And It belongs to a Malay family staying 3 floor above me. Oh God.. how can they let their cat enter/exit the house through the window. ZZZ

Got Stuck.

Look at the ear, no cropped tip means not vaccinated.
Outside of my Window.
PS: That person holding a huge lolli plushie wasn't me.

Swensen Chocolate Fondue.

Err.. looks rather disgusting. Strawberry lai de lah

LOL I know same.. Banana with warm chocolate! I love it!

Oh ya, later going to try an interview! Wish me good luck people! <3

I'm still loving you.
JLJJ♥

7 weeks 1 day

Supper and Dessert

2009-04-30T17:01:00.011+08:00

Replies to Tags :

29 Apr 09, 11:42 PM
ZU: <33333333>
Leen: <33333>

28 Apr 09, 01:15 AM
- Rineee: Relink me at www.r-ineee-needthlove.blogspot.com
SORRY ALL ! I`ve changed link.. Cos previous link having some
problems.. Sorry for th trouble.. Reli
Leen: No worries, Relink you alrdy! :D

27 Apr 09, 09:06 PM
Aniki: heya leen <3>
Leen: ANIKI<3>

27 Apr 09, 12:27 AM
S_T: misses heex( :
Leen: ST<33> Imy too! :D

=x Sorry I was being real lazy. Hahaha!

Actually, my life is like all the same ever since then... Only something is missing that make my life real
dull at the moment. But dear friends and my dearest Sister, don't worry about me. I'm okay, I'm alright! Eileen Eileen fight fight fight :x Went out with Ting and Jamie that Thursday~ :D

Went Bugis for dessert and supper and gave Juan a little surprise hahah!

Supper: Well too busy enjoying never take all of the picture, I'll slightly describe what we had for supper. I shared the Taiwan Mee Sua with Meet Ball with Juan, and a Taiwan 1 inch thick Toast with Honey and
ornflakes with Ting, we had Salt & pepper chicken, Spicy Shredded Sweet Potato & Shredded Chicken with Cold Cucumber. (Lai Lai Beef Noodles)

Dessert: Jamie had Mango Sago, Ting had Watermelon Honey Dew Sago & I had Mango Sago with Pomelo aka Yang Zhi Gan Lu. (Ah Chew Dessert)

Supper : Salt & Pepper Chicken

Taiwan Mee Sua
Dessert time! See this two young ladies super happy LOL!
Ting *Don't disturb me lah, let me enjoy!* :x
Top Left to Right: Watermelon Honey Dew Sago & Mango Sago.
Bottom: Mango Sago with Pomelo( Yang Zhi Gan Lu only available in one size,
Big)
Koko * Mummy I give you $10 dollars help me dapao Steak leh ): *
One early morning, its been very very long since I last seen a
beautiful blue sky.
KoKo * Don't disturb me lah Mummy!* Me * You Snatch My Pillow
leh!!*
KoKo* Don't care! -sleepsss-* Me * DDD:*

I love you and waiting for you, baobei laogong<3

6 Weeks 1 Day

Quiz

2009-04-19T08:55:00.008+08:00

Alrighttttttt! A Email Quiz :DDD

Whatever you do, don't cheat!

FOLLOW THE INSTRUCTIONS -

DO NOT CHEAT OR IT WON'T WORK AND YOU WILL WISH YOU HADN`T.

DO NOT READ AHEAD, JUST DO IT. IT TAKES ABOUT 3 MINUTES - WORTH A TRY

1st. ........Get a PEN and a PAPER

2nd. .....WHEN CHOOSING NAMES, MAKE SURE THEY ARE REAL PEOPLE THAT YOU ACTUALLY KNOW

3rd....... GO WITH YOUR FIRST INSTINCTS!!!!! That's very important for good results.

4th....... SCROLL DOWN ONE LINE AT THE TIME DON`T READ AHEAD otherwise YOU WILL RUIN THE FUN.

On a blank sheet of paper, WRITE NUMBERS 1 through 11 in a COLUMN on the LEFT.

1 2 3 4 and so forth... Okay are you ready?! Let get it started!

BESIDE the NUMBERS 1 & 2, WRITE DOWN ANY 2 NUMBERS YOU WANT.

DO YOU HAVE A FAVORITE NUMBER?

BESIDE the NUMBERS 3 & 7, WRITE DOWN THE NAMES OF TWO MEMBERS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX.

(CAUTION: DO NOT LOOK AHEAD or IT WILL NOT TURN OUT RIGHT)

WRITE ANYONES NAME (like FRIENDS or FAMILY. ..) next to 4, 5, & 6 .

(DON`T CHEAT OR YOU`LL BE UPSET THAT YOU DID)

WRITE down FOUR SONG TITLES in 8, 9, 10, & 11

Finally, MAKE A WISH ! !!!

?ARE YOU READY?

{The Results}

HERE IS THE KEY TO THE GAME THE NUMBER of PEOPLE YOU MUST TELL ABOUT THIS GAME is found in SPACE 2

THE PERSON IN SPACE 3 IS THE ONE YOU LOVE

THE PERSON YOU LIKE but your relationship CANNOT WORK is in SPACE 7

YOU CARE MOST about t he PERSON you put in SPACE 4

THE PERSON YOU NAME IN NUMBER 5 IS THE ONE WHO KNOWS YOU VERY WELL.

THE PERSON YOU NAMED IN 6 IS YOUR LUCKY STAR

THE SONG IN 8 IS THE SONG THAT MATCHES WITH THE PERSON IN NUMBER 3

THE TITLE IN 9 IS THE SONG FOR THE PERSON IN 7

THE 10 TH SPACE IS THE SONG THAT TELLS YOU MOST ABOUT YOUR MIND

AND 11 IS THE SONG TELLING HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT LIFE

NUMBER 1 IS YOUR LUCKY NUMBER

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My result turns out to be,

Jasper Leong is the one I love. ( TRUE)

I like my brother Lewis but my relastionship with him cannot work.( I guess because he is my brother and I always fight with him ;x)

I care most for my dearest furkid Shiko. (Yes my KOKO!)

And my Daddy knows me very well. (I suppose so :\)

My Grandmother is my LuckyStar! ( Woots Ah Ma, bless me more plsss)

We Belong Together is the song that matches Jasper Leong.

Good Girl Gone Bad is for my Brother.

Right Here Waiting tell me most of about my mind. (This is definately true)

I am Stupid by SS501 tells me how I feel about life! ( Is true I'm somehow stupid xD)

Oh baby baby, I miss you lots.
♥

ily

lalalaaa

2009-04-16T09:53:00.002+08:00

Haas! Sorry for the long wait of my posting

I'm taking a break from audit :D
Got to enjoy myself alittle more urh, well still finding a office hours based job. But kinda hard to find. Well have to sui bian find a job liao. But you know lah I very mafan one -.- zzz well the thursday I've spent with darling Ting, cutie Jamie and JJ~ For today will be Jamie, Ting and Adessss <- U better be alsp now man.

I go catch my BBF. Hadn't catch it for weeks ): Well Well i like Kim Hyun Joong the most lah!

Sorry for this disgusting looking Waffle with ice cream x=
Ting!
JJ & Jamie

To my dearest Boyfriend;Jasper Leong,

I still love you as much as the 1st day I started loving you. I'm sorry that I've lied to you before, although you'll found out everytime, and sorry for being unreasonable sometimes. But bao bei still love you the most lah! ♥ My chou Yandao! But bao bei, you know how much I miss you? ;D And you please don't worry your zhu lao po gen ren pao~ Cause Ah Zhu only loves you. And only you, Jasper Leong will treat me right.

Silly laogong, I love you & I'm waiting for you.

From your zhu lao po,
Leen♥

4 weeks 1 day.

2009-04-07T22:29:00.003+08:00

Went to the Pet event on Sunday. The weather was fine at first but it changes quickly. From Super nice to Super Sunny and Hot and Humid to Drizzeling to Super Heavy Rain. Gosh right. Me and Gigi with 4 firkids... 3 on stroller and of course My baby was carried by me. Dare not let him walk on the grass. Afraid that he would get ticks and fleas. Very troublesome de leh~ And I have yet to get the anti-ticks and fleas vaccination. Hmm. Alot of medium sized breed was there. And they have the Pet Wedding LOLS. Its very very cute lmao.

This few days been busy with personal stuffs.. lol.

As I am carrying my dear Koko, I got no time and hand to take pictures ):

Shiro, Shina, Shadow. Shiki is in the front sit. hahaha!

I love you. My dear.

2 weeks 6 days.

10 months<3

2009-04-05T08:00:00.005+08:00

Happy 10th month, my dearest. ♥

I love you. (:

2 weeks 4 days.

2 weeks 3 days.

2009-04-04T02:00:00.002+08:00

Wee~ updating timeeeeee

haha I won't type so much, I am catching a Korean Drama dam nice please.

Dear, I am missing you. ♥

2 weeks 3 days.

2009-04-01T06:10:00.002+08:00

I'm still loving you and missing you as always.

Bao bei, I really miss you much. Do you feel the same way too?

How I hope, I can hear your voice and see you face right now.

Muacks, I love you baby.

2 weeks.

2009-03-29T03:15:00.002+08:00

My sun doesn't shine.

Just let me cry for you tonight.

1 week 4 days.

Coming Soon!

2009-03-26T00:52:00.008+08:00

Met up with Juan & Co. on Tues.

Catch Coming Soon. The Movie is ok ok. There's some part quite frightening though. The whole cinema is either Hahaha or Ahhhh or EEE or Oh Oh Oh. LMAO. BTH. After that bus-ed to Lai Lai had supper there. Was a enjoyable night (: Slacked and chit chatted till 3 am then we went home. Gary and Jian Jie sent me home. Thank you both! Then sit at my void-deck chit chat. Talk until ghost stories in their camp and what spiritual encounter they've been through. Freaking me out with all the stories. Ended our story telling and chit chatting at about 7-8 in the morning. LOL and poor Gary had to go back to office already. Thanks you both again. LOL.

At Cine.

Jian Jie. He's always smiling.
In Bus.

Eat half way then remember I never take picture. -.- Squid and Dao Qua.

Shredded Chicken with cold cucumber, Salt&Pepper Chicken and Sliced potato. Obvious that the guys don't like veg.

Juan♥

Jian Jie

Gary.

Blah-ing away.

Jian Ye & Rodney.

Jian Jie's Zhao Pai Smile.

Ugly Pls.

They wanna Sho Jim.

Sieh gay lah Rodney.

I SMSing Dear...

He almost got choked by the pearls. LMAO

9 yrs going to 10 yrs of Brother & Sister.

Da Jia ah?! Lai loh. Neh Neh Ni Pu Pu!

Juan & Rodney.

Blur sia, Juan and Jian Ye

Juan & Jian Jie. Me, Jian Ye & Rodney go disturb hahaha!

Group Photo. LOL

My dearest Lao Gong, I Miss you so much. I love you lots. Muacks♥ (:

12345678

2009-03-24T01:41:00.003+08:00

I am missing you♥

What Should I do?

I love you♥

123456

Don't say good-bye.

Koko grooming

2009-03-23T00:37:00.002+08:00

Brought Shiko out for his grooming with Shiro and Shadow.

Peter fetched us to the groomer at around 12.30pm. I think this groomer's grooming is much better then the 2 previous groomer. The hair around its eyes is nicely trimmed. And the paw nails is short. Unlike the previous groomers, they only chip away tiny bit. And the price they charge is 50% less. $25 include Hair-cutting, Plucking of inner-ear hair, Ear-Cleaning, Nail-cutting and bath.

I miss you, Dear♥

12345

I love you, My Dear.

2009-03-22T00:09:00.003+08:00

I love you my dearest Laogong, Jasper Leong.♥

I miss you too.

1234

I will. And I do. Muacks♥

..?what now?

2009-03-20T19:53:00.005+08:00

What's wrong?

I hate this feeling. I do.

What's happening?

Juan, I sincerely give you my best wishes. Like I said, learn to protect yourself more.
I can't say much, I got problems with my relationships too. One's relationship can't be compared.

All I can do is already done. There's really nothing much I can say or do.
I tend to worry about something that doesn't need my concern.
Seriously, is this what I want or what you want?

Its has been long.. Real long for me.

2009-03-17T21:44:00.004+08:00

Aloha earthlings,

Yesterday went Suntec for my interview. I think there's no chance for me ):
After interview, I decided to go and find Juan give her a surprise visit LOL! But great. I lost my way in Suntec -_-" I couldn't find the linked overhead-bridge above Middle Road, near Nicoll highway. I walked the same place over and over again for 3 times. So I got no choice took cab there and then yes I wasted $10 for cab fare. Its only 10 minutes walk from Suntec to there..

When I reached at Lai Lai Beef Noodles, I told Juan about it and she laughed so much and Lao Ma also laughed. Paiseh die lah. I waited for her to finish work. I wait for about 3 hours? LOL Juan feel happy please you're the second person I will wait this long okay. Eh serious I always late one feel surprised I waited for you one eh. LOL After that we walked around went B.J basement buy fries. And then walked to Juan's block went 25th slack. Then Home Sweet Home~

Can you guess who is the person in red blouse?

Chen Liping aka Ah YoYo Lao Shi. LOL :x She damn fair can! Healthy Fair skin with hint of pink!

*My bao bei lao gong, I love you!♥*

十句话

2009-03-16T12:20:00.004+08:00

十句很有深度，很有意思的话.

第一句
如果我们之间有1000步的距离你只要跨出第1步我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步

第二句
通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人才是真正爱你的人

第三句
付出真心　才会得到真心却也可能伤得彻底
保持距离　就能保护自己却也注定永远寂寞

第四句
有时候　不是对方不在乎你而是你把对方看得太重

第五句
朋友就是把你看透了　还能喜欢你的人

第六句
就算是believe　中间也藏了一个lie

第七句
真正的好朋友并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题而是在一起　
就算不说话也不会感到尴尬

第八句
没有一百分的另一半
只有五十分的两个人

第九句
为你的难过而快乐的　是敌人
为你的快乐而快乐的　是朋友
为你的难过而难过的就是那些　该放进心里的人

第十句
冷漠　有时候并不是无情只是一种避免被伤害的工具

认真去思考，你会得到意想不到的收获。

*第四句
有时候　不是对方不在乎你而是你把对方看得太重

I finally understand this. (: and this.

第九句
为你的难过而快乐的　是敌人
为你的快乐而快乐的　是朋友
为你的难过而难过的就是那些　该放进心里的人 *

Baby, called me in the morning. My silly husband forgot to take his HP out Yesterday. Made me worried whole day ):♥

His words can just simply melt my heart away♥
You said you were touched by my words, but you've touched me by your actions not only words.

Now is my time to do something. Something (: only for you.

Muacks my sweet sweet lover! :x ♥ You know that I miss ya and love ya ;D♥

And of course I love you too my sis, girlfriends, brothers and buddies (:♥

一篇男生都会明白，女生都会感慨知道太迟的文章‏

2009-03-16T03:28:00.003+08:00

一篇男生都会明白，女生都会感慨知道太迟的文章‏

男人要永远感谢在他20多岁的时候曾经陪在他身边的女人，

因为20多岁的男人处在一生中的最低点, 没钱、没地位，没房、没车、没事业，不能独立又不想依赖，挣扎着彷徨着，寻找自己的位置！

而20多岁的女人却是她生命中最灿烂的时候；

男人要永远感谢在他20多岁的时候曾经陪在他身边的女人，

因为二十多岁的男人还很“懵懂”，而二十多岁的女人却很灿烂；

二十多岁的男人处在一生中的最低点，而二十多岁的女人却是她的大好华年；

二十多岁的男人很不知珍惜，而二十多岁的女人最需要被珍惜；

二十多岁的男人自卑到极点所以非常自负，而二十多岁的女人却在努力建立他的自信；

二十多岁的男人不懂爱，不会爱却需要爱，而二十多岁的女人需要被爱，

需要关怀，却要付出呵护付出关怀；二十多岁的男人没钱、没事业，

但有欲望而二十多岁的女人空守着自己的韶光不再；

女孩子二十岁左右是她最美丽的年华，这时她的心地最善良，她有点成熟，又有点孩子气。

男孩子在二十多岁时遇见了一个年纪相当的女孩子，那一定要珍惜她，

因为这个女孩是用自己最美丽的年华陪他走过了最暗淡的日子！！！

女孩只要陪他走过，女孩会永远幸福下去~~~当女孩对你撒娇甚至无理取闹时，

请男孩不要烦恼女孩，因为她们有道理这样，我们没理由烦恼，

我们要做的就是很理解很理解，保护好这位天使，等我们到了30岁，

正当我们最美丽的时候，也请你不要放开这位曾经的天使！！！

二十多岁的男人不知道珍惜,不知道感恩. 当他们三十多岁的时候,事业有成,成熟稳重.

开始嫌弃曾经陪伴过他,但不再年轻的女人.有人说男人其实是最专一的.

因为从20岁到80岁的男人都喜欢20岁左右年轻漂亮的女人.这是个笑话,但也是个事实.

有人说现在的年轻女孩都很现实,眼中没有爱情.

称着年轻嫁个有钱的,一辈子也就有个归宿了.

男人有时好比洋葱,要想看到洋葱的心就需要一层一层去剥。

但是女人在剥的过程会不断流泪剥到最后才知道，

原来洋葱是没有心的.

True eh? LOL. :x

lalas

2009-03-15T02:06:00.004+08:00

ALOHA earthlings!

LOL.

Actually I got no topic to blog at.

Somehow, I think Juan's life is in a mess now. Totally messed up.
Could the fucking Butch just fucking disappear in her world. Why keep torturing her?
You think it is fun eh? Hope you'll get what she received double or even triple.

And I went to see "Dua Kang aka Big Cannon" Make over photo. PUKES can.
LMAO In case you don't know is who, someone who was a double head snake and try all her might to destroy my life and reputation. Trying so hard to get everyone to turn their backs on me.

Faint Hearted people, prepare a bag for vomiting TY. I don't wanna turn you guys off eh.
She said to me before:"People said I am much more prettier then you. And you're so tomboy."

Eh thanks. I admit I am a tomboy. But you hadn't forget that you were one too eh? =\

Since you wanna show people you're beautiful, I'll help you advertise then. No Copyright sign was there anyway ;D

Enjoy it people!

Lets Clap Clap for this very "Beautiful" Chick here. ;D

<33333

2009-03-11T20:05:00.004+08:00

Okay, I am here to revive this dead blog.

Recently didn't have the mood to online at all. Don't ask me why, I don't know either. LOL

And I got a super strange interest now, yes wedding gown. LOL! Recently I spotted a black wedding gown in Bugis. That was lovely, but isn't black enough. Cannot take the picture of it leh.. I even ask the lady can I actually take a picture of it ): LOL! I always wanted to wear a black wedding gown if I am getting marry in the future. LOL Okay, that was a dream only lah. Where in the world people will wear black wedding gown in wedding one. LOL Eh but I hope I can lah. Black wedding gown <3> And I spotted this White Wedding gown with Black Embroidery at Liang Seah Street. It is Nice PLEASE. But I cannot imagine I'm wearing it. You see the cutting so deep, only ladies with great full breast with that gown on would be nice. And must be slim, walao chio die lah! Envy si le. Wuwu I too old to "fa yu" already lah! LOL

Yesterday met Skye jie at Causeway point went Pasta Mania for lunch. Walk around and she bought me some nice dark chocolate. After that went to Bugis. Found them both ( Juan and Zhen) inside Starbucks. Like no place to go one always Bugis. I DON'T WANT go Bugis anymore for our next meet up can anot Miss Lee Xiu Juan? After that I go buy my zui ai Dark Chocolate Ice Cream *slurpps*

Then went to Cini, waited for Jianye and Rodney. Complain I take very long to Bath and Make-up. Now look at you guys go home just to put things only more then 1 hour from Holland to Orchard! TSK TSK worst then me lah! Somemore you all cab down de leh! I from Woodlands take bus go Bukit Merah then go Bugis also faster then you all. BTH. Wait until 9pm+ de movie all no more, must wait for those 12 + de. We bought Watchman 5 person.

After that went Emerald Hill, actually they wanna drink one but too bad hahaha must above 25 years old! LALALA I happy die cannot go in! =X Cause JianYe craving for the Chicken Wings then ask if can dapao anot. Lucky him, can dapao. Then we like some homeless kid like that sit at the roadside eat chicken wing! Then went back Cini for movie. AND PLEASE DON'T WATCH "WATCHMAN" IT IS SUPER BORING! Halfway through the movie I told Juan, can I just go home? -.- And very soon after what I said, some people actually went off. More then 10 pax went off can. And Rodney LOL! BTH YOU LAH! I steady never blog out what happen ok. =X

After movie went home!

This is the wedding gown at Liang Seah

At cini waiting for Rodney at JianYe.

In Bus to Cini.

I forgot when take de.

You Kee Duck Rice!

This is when a guy said I look much older then her. She's 21, and I am 23-24. *CRY*

*Thanks Skye Jie once again! Thanks Rodney and JianYe for the movie =X*

TO: Miss Lee Xiu Juan,

Please wake up, there's still alot of people around you who truly cares about you. Okay. No matter what, just try hard. (:

*I miss you lah my silly lao gong! ily ;x <3>*

-LEEN LOVE JASPER-

2009-03-02T17:02:00.007+08:00

Oh Ya, yesterday was my wedding party. Thank you people for attending my Wedding. =D And sorry for those who can enter my Wedding, not enough slots ): And I SWEAR I won't itchy hand again and click < / 3 D:!

Cause now I know, you're the one for me. Be it in real life or audition.
And, baby I really don't wanna let you go anymore. I'm holding you tight and never let you go this time.

And to Who-Ever-You-Think-You-Got-Chance, Who-Ever-Likes-Him and Wa-So-Pro. Don't bother to think that you stand a chance girl. Cause, he is mine in Real Life.
And don't bother to come and say a thing, it'll make no difference. Face the reality (:
LAN CI PPL. You're not Welcome.

Couple Memo. Credit to ZU! (: I changed the letters and it took me more than half an hour.

LOL, I know hen ah lian, thats why i changed ;x

Thank you friends ;DD

Yes, I am the lagger =3

Lag whole game can. LOL!

Ken got the Flower =X * You Need Flower Meh? =XXX*

EILEEN CHOO LOVES JASPER LEONG <3

-You're my everything-

2009-03-02T15:49:00.002+08:00

Today, met Skye Jie (Dear's cousin) 7am at ICA Building. And I was late. *Sorry Skye Jie and Dear ): * Both of us never get our beauty sleep yet. LOL there's a queue outside the ICA already I probably think those 1st few queued there as early as 6am @_@ and ICA Building is open at 8am. And PUI, we waited till 8.20 also not yet open. When the guards opened the door, I went straight to the 6 floor while Jie went 2nd floor for her Passport Size Photo. When I was up at 6 floor to my very surprise I was the second in the queue LOL! Then I start to Kan Chiong already, cause the lady was serving the 1st person in queue. I Kan Chiong until kept looking at the left. Then I called Jie, and the lady was calling for me already. Then haha, Skye Jie walk out from the lift! Phew lah!! Cause need the Passport to clarify. And guess what, the lady serving us were Skye Jie's primary and secondary school mate. LOL. But the officer gave a negative respond. Sigh. Skye Jie was like emo* emo* Hais* Haisss* No Mood* I super lousy at consoling man. I kept tell her "Jie don't sigh.." She" Xin Qing Bu Mei lah ):" LOL I don't know what to do D: After that went to the same coffee shop for breakfast, I had Shredded Chicken noodle while Jie's having Wanton Mee. It was like 9am+ only. I called Haagen Dazs at Causeway Point. Nobody pick up. End Up We decided to go Civic Center for Starbucks.

Took cab, while in cab Jie notice my Deep Red Nail polish =X She touched it and ask "You never apply top-coat right" I was like aisehh I never say leh. Then she make a call, to my surprise she called the Vietnam House at Yishun 101 a shop where they do Medicure and Pedicure. !_! She booked an appointment at 10am. She bought a package there so she used one of the package on me ;x So change of destination, we went Yishun. Reached there at 9.40am, smoked and went in. And start with the Pedicure 1st. And Please I am a SuaKu, I never had Pedi nor Medi before and I don't know what to do there. When they ask me, you want the Classic or Express? I was like huh semox lai de? And I looked at Jie, she helped me said Classic, she asked me if I want 3D nail arts. I don't want, I feel so paiseh lah. LOL. And having people to touch my feet feel dam super super paiseh please. But dam shiok, hen shuang lah! LOLOL. End up only I had my nail polished with colours, the girl said Jie's toe nails are breaking and weak due to she had done alot of 3D nail arts. So no choice. I even asked Jie's opinion about the colour I should choose. Yes, I am how to say.. Mei You Zhu Jian/Zu Jian de ren. Like if you were to ask me where to go when I meet you or what I want, I'll reply "Anything, Up to You, I see what you want then I also loh" those type of people loh.

After Pedi & Medi, we went Northpoint that new extension cause I've never been there before and the old Northpoint I went there in 2007. Years back liao. We walked around and we saw Sakura, the Muslim Thai eating place. Went there for lunch. And I was so full can and thanks dear for that. He asked Jie to feed me full full! And indeed I am very very full! Then Skye Jie order "Red Iced Ruby" I asked her what is that? Those ice-kacang's Red Ruby? She replied no, try already you'll know it. And surprised eh, in between the red jelly was chestnut cubes in light coconut milk and ice cubes! It wasn't too sweet and the coconut milk wasn't overwhelming at all! Really nice! Serious! After that walked around again the went home.

Haha really nice of Skye Jie. Enjoyed the outing with ya (:

The Red Iced Ruby.

Choose this colour with Skye Jie de.
PS, I know I got a pair of ugly feet. This Deep Blue I wanna try long ago liao. Choose myself de.

This really hen shuang!

Thanks Skye Jie again!

*Dear I miss you and love you, muacks<3>*

Nights going to slp liaooo =3

2009-02-20T16:51:00.007+08:00

Alright~~~~ Just a quick post, been busy with my game luh D:! I'll let the photos to do the talking~

JLJJ;ILDY<33>

Airport loh. @ 23FEB 3+am.
Terminal 3 @ 3.38 am.

Steamboat with Juan, Rodney and Jianye @ Liang Seah St. 22FEB

Queenstown Club @ 19FEB, 3.25 am

Bai Swee.

@ Clementi 18 FEB 11.21pm

@ Nam Tai, Juan dying her hair.

PJ Overnight @ Zhen's House 17-18FEB

Watching Bu Liang Xiao Hua.

Cute hor. The only Pink Color thing i carry out from now.

Rescued this baby liz. :D

I wanna thank everyone who helped me to earn the FAM Points, and thanks for chionging with me tru out the nights. <3> Now Have a good rest everyone! Thanks again!

Baby,ILDY. Muacks!

Nights people =3 <3

@ 4.12am;26FEB

Ty Dear`<3~

2009-02-17T01:00:00.006+08:00

Today woke up.. oops, Ytd* woke up at 7+am without alarm clock. Claps Claps* Went out of house at around 10+ am cause meeting Cousin Skye (Dear's cousin) at 11am at ICA Building. I accompanied her to do some paperwork there(: She hanged to me, my valentine's gifts from dear ;D Love it alots! We took the queue number and its like so far behind lurh. So we went for lunch nearby and got back there's still a long way before its our turn. So we decided to smoke while waiting and when we're back its kinda near our queue number already. Went to Bishan after that.

Went to CPF Building then to J8. Had ice cream there too then went to Party World. Cousin Skye's singing is very nice okay! After that we go dinner and she headed off to Dear's house to leave the gift there and pass Girl Girl and Ah Gong Ah Ma some food. I bought Otah, Po Piah and Donuts XD Slow poke Dear went home only left 3 Otahs =X lalala Next time buy for you again okay? =3 And I decided to go Bugis to give Juan sis a surprise ;D And I think she did eh. HAHA! And she treated me a Hazelnut Mocha Frappe and she make de okay!

Today I filled with sweetness lah! Dear really surprised me with all the gifts. Thank you dear, I love it alot :) And sorry that the gifts I gave to you ): Really felt so happy, very happy indeed in my 19 years of life. And sis thank you for the Frappe that you made =3 Its nice! Today I eat too sweet and feel all the sweetness lah, gonna get Diabetes le lah! <3>
And thanks Skye Jie =3

Touched + Happy + Sweet de look =X

The Piggy dear bought.
Cute like me right! *SI BHB AGAIN* =3 (ty dear love it alot!<3>)

The Paper Bag also cute =3

The Box Filled With Surprise and Sweetness

Yes its Chocolate with flavor!

Alot to eat le, can slowly enjoy liaos ;333

Wallet <3> (ty dear<33> love it too!)

The Couple necklace dear bought. Each of us had 2 pendant =3

-JLJJ;LEEN- ("V")

LALA. * Oops I did it again!*

*Shakes Shakes* ;X

Hazelnut Mocha Frappe

Party World~

Morocco Chocolate <3>

ICE CREAMS! YUMMM YUMMMMMMM !_!

Mine, Chocolate ice cream, Raspberry Sorbet with Crepe.

Skye Jie's Summer Berries and Macadamia nut ice cream with waffle.

This is SUPERB. Brownie with Macadamia Nut Ice Cream.

PS: Thanks Skye Jie =D, Thank you bao bei and Juan sis hope you like the surprise! <333333>

Bao Bei, you made me feel so xin fu. I love you. (: ♥

why?

2009-02-15T13:08:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I just need you here with me.

Holding each other close and listen to your heartbeat.

Baby, sometimes I can't help to feel so lonely.

Although I'm sad at times but still I love you from my heart (:

Sigh* Going to Bugis later to buy the QQ Rice and Fries. Suddenly yearning for it. Got to go alone though. 1 week 6 days I'm alone.. Tuesday I've got Juan's companion. Thanks sis for accompany me every of your off day. Guess thats because we're both lonely girl. Wanted to be like every couple on the streets, holding hands, sweet talking, being so close together seems hard.. But this is what girls/women desire right? hehs ;x Sigh~ Sighhhh~ Sighhhhhhhhhh~ Lol. My new hobby, sighing here and there. D; hao le loh.. I go prepare and go out already. Alone...sighhhhhh DD;

Baby, I miss you & I love you.

2009-02-14T11:39:00.006+08:00

Happy Valentines Day! ❤

Happy Valentines Day~~

Happy V'day everyone =3~ Hope you people enjoy yourself today~ I guess some of you are dating right now. Cherish this very moment! =DD Have a great day ahead ;D

(I can only hope.)

2009-02-13T02:17:00.008+08:00

Okay blogger can upload picture already~ weee~

Picture taken on 10 - 11 Feb.

See the dangling earring? Juan asked me to put on. Coz I don't wear those earrings..

I like this one. =X I know I very cute ^.^v I know Si BHB hor. LOL
This small small present, I wrap 2 hours.. Power right.
My drawing deproved liao T_T

The Far East LVL 5 Chicken Rice. They said very nice!! I find it so-so only -.-

At Queensway, My zui ai~~ Cheese Toufu. Not real toufu more like fishcake.

Juan's zui ai~~ The alot alot chilli sauce de Fishball!

Ya, we zi lian. LOL

If I never cut my hair ): will be as long as hers or even longer! ):

I bet You Don't Know I Got This Pic. =p

LOL. Bo Liao-ing.

My face cramp. She want to cry. ;x

I like the lanterns =\

She like the Peony flower.

Want to take without her knowing de... She know my pattern liao.

Enjoying already.

Gelare.

Ice Cream with Waffle + Whip Cream. Chocolate Overload and Cookies & Cream ice cream~

Now prepare for a TURN OFF. SERIOUS! NOT KIDDING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ready!

My Before and After! HAHAHAHA!

Bo Bian have to leave without make up ):

Ehh no The one on the Left is my Ah Soh Twins. I'm the one on the Right =XXXXXXX

Sorry if this really turn you off. ): Coz some say I pretty but I think I better show you the Real Me. Hahaha! So still wanna continue chase me? LOL!

So would you still want to love me afterall? -JLJJ.

Hope bao bei Jasper get well soon ): I love you baobei (: <3

2009-02-12T00:19:00.002+08:00

Geez... I just woke up. And I decided to blog lol but looks like there's a problem with blogger.com.
The picture can't be loading in blog. So I decided not to upload any photo this time.

Yesterday went to Queensway and get my contact lens. Once again~~ I am late. Thanks to my make up. I forgotten that I don't have any contact lens on and I already done with my eye make up... So I remove everything and wash my whole face again and do my SPF and foundation-ing again. Then cabbed there. Juan is waiting there~

Then to Town eat chicken rice at Far East.. hmm I find it so-so only.. lol or maybe because of my flu? Then went searching for gifts.. Then pei Juan go Armani Exchange, wah lao eh I see the men's Tees nice leh... but then aiyo.. Cannot say about anything I buy =X I wish I was working lah.. So I can buy alot alot.. Then we walked to PS for Gelare's waffle with 2 scoops of ice cream, it cost less then $10. Worth it loh. Hmm I wish I can bring someone there and share the waffle with ice cream =x hahahaha

Then bus-ed to Bugis.. Cause she passing the gift to HL. Then meet Jasmine and Seng there too. Then slack at fountain there talk and talk, talk until all of us full of anger. LOL then Xian and company came. What a nice timing. ZZZZZZZZZ But anyway I didn't talk much to them. LOL

Then I accompany Juan walk home then I cabbed home.. Once I reach home 1st thing I do is to wrap the gifts up. From 1.30 I wrap untill 3.30. =.= Yea I lousy at wrapping then you know what my house got no normal scotch-tape D: wth.. Only got those thick one.. holy shit right. LOL But I cut it to smaller pieces. And I realised that I can't cut anything in straight lines. Even I write letter, I can't write in straight lines.

And what's worst. My drawing DEPROVED hell lot. *WUWU~*

Someone at chalet.. Phone is with sis. Cannot contact. ._.''

2009-02-10T11:37:00.004+08:00

People enter your life and leave, some leave footprints that wouldn't go away.

People whom I treasure and trusted =D

Juan, Zhen, JLJJ, Girl Eve, DJ Aniki, Ades Yu Luan, Bibi Ting and ZR, last but not least my family members, Shiko and of cause Gigi Jie Jie and Peter + 3 of their furkids Na, Ro and Ah Pai.

Really glad that you guys and girls enter my life(:

And my friends, fret not. Cause you had lighten my life too.

Just wanna thank everyone of you. Helping me, lending me a helping hand when I fall, Stand by me in the hardest time, and hear my rant the same things over and over again. ;D

Appreciated.

*I got a new hmm hobby/pet? at home LOL a ginger plant that just grow it stem before Christmas last year. Welcome my new family member! =D*

<33

2009-02-10T00:48:00.006+08:00

Someone MIA-ed after eating );!!
Never Mind, I know you are tired(: <33

Tomorrow going to meet up with my Juan :x I think I'll walk the whole Orchard just to find the gift that catches my eye. ( I don't care, I want to Buy ;[) I aiming for Hugo Boss Element leh... D: Hahahaha and sure to get the Tatty Bear (Me to You) card de! Nice mar. Oh ya, going to get my contact lens and solution tomorrow too. Hope I'll be guai guai and sleep early today! (Hor? TKP x;)

Advance good night to; JLJJ(: , Juan =3, Bibi ;D, ZR ^^ and Myself =DDD

I hope everything will go smoothly on Sunday =p S2

2009-02-08T00:14:00.003+08:00

My bark collar for Koko has arrived today! (:
Hope he'll learn not to bark at everyone so loudly. I know it hurts but no choice lar );
This Bark Collar cost me $170.... lol Price went up already. No Choice ;x

am I gonna spend this year's valentine's all alone again? Laughs I think it'll make no difference.. Cause I had been celebrating it alone for 19 years ;x Next Saturday; alone at home =3

Sis, you better then me le.. HL got you a diamond ring leh.. LOL. I've got nothing ok.. only pure memories can. So come on~ Don't sad le. I will be by yourside ok. I know it would be better if the one is HL or the one you're thinking now. But I am sure, I can do a little difference too right (= Jia You bah!

2009-02-07T05:51:00.003+08:00

Two words; I regretted.

Regretted that I've let you go.

I'm waiting. (: <3

2009-02-07T01:46:00.002+08:00

Alright, some update ;x

Bought a baby gate to lock Shiko up in the kitchen.. He looks like a prisoner behind bars now. ;x
Shall take his picture and upload someday.

Had been a vampire recently.. Active during the night. And had been trying to change to my normal life by not sleeping till the next 10pm or 11pm then have my good night sleep. But I can't do it. LOL.

To someone: Waiting. (: <3

2009-02-03T21:30:00.002+08:00

男人，不要再来拨动我的心。
傻瓜，那并不是爱情。
难道真实的爱是那么短占的？
说爱就爱，说不爱就不爱。
要忘就忘，要恨就恨的吗？
“爱情” 请不要再来拨动我的心。
“爱情” 是我最难克服的阴影。
把希望变成了绝望就不会感到疼痛。
把爱情变成了怨恨就不会受到伤害。
告诉我自己，我办得到。

Yes, I can do it.
Being cold and heartless is a way to protect myself.

NUAA

2009-02-02T18:33:00.003+08:00

Ytd went cine sing k with my loves, Juan & Zhen. Met Shem and Xinyi there too ;DD. Slack at the Kopitiam. Then me, Juan & Zhen went singing, Shem and Xinyi went for movie. Damn Nuaa. Sieh Nuaa. Super Nuaa. Mai gong liao. Don't know got do stupid stuff anot. =.= I hope Juan's fine. and Zhen you Power lah! I most lousy one T.T bo bian. =x love love love lalalala now like got abit ki siao also.. zzzz K. I finally feel hungry le. I go eat. BB. Cya later Juan? =D

2009-01-30T16:40:00.003+08:00

Hmm... met up with Juan on Wednesday night at town. Nothing much just slacking. LOL. This few days my life have been corrupted again. I sleep at 7am or 3pm and woke up in the wee hours. Damn it. Really have to try the hard way to get my life back to normal. Anyway, I haven't sleep. Post till here then. I'm off to my bed. Its seducing me. LOL

NIGHTS!

Shag.

Juan and me.
My hair doesn't eat the hair dye, ash grey. Its so ah lian can. =.=

Ya I know. A Pregnant women.

LALALA =X

Emo again ...

LALALA.

Outside Cine.

Opera Diva.

Mocha and Double Choc Frappe.

Black Rose<33333 not real one lah. lol

There's nothing else I can say.

sigh

2009-01-30T07:23:00.005+08:00

我快要发疯了。

那些情绪，情感不断的折磨我。要哭，哭不出来。要笑，笑不出来。难过时，我迫使我自己快乐。压低了我的情绪不见得好过。我该这么办？真的不能麻木我自己吗？

我要麻木！我要麻木！

Chinese New Year;Chu Yi-Chu Er

2009-01-28T00:27:00.010+08:00

28th Jan. Tuseday.

Woke up at 3pm. Yes I pig die. ;D Reached home at 7 am mar LOL. Ate lunch at home, daddy done the cooking in the morning and went out already. At 6pm cabbed to my Big Aunt's house with my brother. Met up with daddy at the bus stop and went Marina there. DAMN CROWED. And have to line-up to get in there wtf =.= cause they don't allow drinks and food to enter there. Bought the Korean Rice Pancake, Nice can. Then went home. Nothing much this year. Kinda disappointed. Chinese New Year leh... Don't have any nice food there, KNS alot Malay Stall wtf =.= All sell pasam malam thing zzzz CNY leh eat Mee Siam? Eat Fried Noodle? SIAO. Walk walk then saw a Korean stall. Of course eat something never eat before de lar. After that bus-ed home.

A life without you.

Korean Rice Pancake. NICE CAN
That Cai Shen Ye. Alamak ps arh. My phone camera sucky.
Reach just in time to watch the Pian Pao. Loud die.
The nice entrance.
I see the Wheel colour lighting turn red then take de =X

27th Jan. Monday.

Went over to Xiu Juan house the day before Monday went back home at 7 am. I never sleep jiu go Pai Nian already. Steady right. LOL went Ah Ma house eat Mee Sua, as usual she knows I'll take two hard boiled egg. Then went back home daddy also cook Mee Sua, same he gave me two hard boiled egg also. Jialat..4 eggs already. No wonder last time my math exam and test so many 0. After that Mummy came over to my house. Then we cabbed down to Jurong West Wai Po's house pian nian cause my 2nd older brother is there waiting already. Talked to Er Kor alot. LOL Cause I never see him for about 2 years already. Da Kor wasn't there, he at his girlfriend house LOL. Mummy miss him leh. See no wonder my mummy dote me most =X cause I'm her only daughter. LOL. Ate steamboat there and collect entry fee =X After that went off together with er kor and didi. Meet up with Juan at Bugis at 9. Slacked in Starbucks. After that Nick came over too. The 3 of us went Kallang in midnight. Slacked and played card game.. went home at 6 am plus. Took bus 16 to PS there. Went to 7-11 buy slipper(Juan's BTH that heels) and bought something to munch on. then Homed at 7+am. That night.. I missed someone. Badly.

Emo-ed.

Never sleep dao D: see my face so shag.

Now she look even more shag then me. LOL

Really CMI sia me.

The heels... too high for me ;X

Star-watching...............................

You hurt me more then these heels.

Lets See who's that stupid donkey!

Great it was me. Damn it.. whole 8 rounds I am the donkey.

Juan and Nick.

She sieh BUSY.

Lady Luck. <3

Chu Yi, Pai Nian.. I wore all black except for my belt and nails. =.=

Er Kor, Mummy and me.

Er Kor, Mummy, Me and Didi.

I don't want to..but I just can't stop missing you.

Bitterly Sweet-

爱。。。。 ？

Fuck You.

Straight Through My Heart

Plug it in and turn me on`

dirty bit-

Something whisper in my ears and said

Saturday's night fever

I ain't stupid.

so intoxicating

Trust?

A steel knife in my windpipe

Baby don't you know.

Busy with work & life.

I don't care.

When I say Te Amor

Te quiero; Te echo de menos

Bastard.

从不存在

Kill me.

My life, a bed of black roses tinted crimson.

They are the same. They're, the silent murderer.

E Against The World.

I love you dad.

I rock your tits!

Rocking Tits.

What about now?

Unbreak My Heart.

Purposeless

Just another day without you.

I miss him ):

很忙 - 容祖儿

He's done with.

You're still the one.

rotting away

ily dear<3

I'm so so so so HAPPY!

Loved!

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In memory of Michael Jackson

14 Weeks 5 Days.

14 Weeks 4 Days

14 weeks 1 days

I'll be waiting for you.

waiting <3

Happy 1 Year Anni.

speechless.

sigh.

workingggg

10 Weeks.

20 years of life..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY

Swensen<3

Supper and Dessert

Quiz

lalalaaa

10 months<3

2 weeks 3 days.

Coming Soon!

Koko grooming

I love you, My Dear.

..?what now?

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Ty Dear`<3~

why?

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NUAA

sigh

爱。。。。？